Am I depressed?
The other day, I wrote a blog about me being lonely, and someone commented and asked if I was maybe depressed? To tell you the truth: I don't know. Maybe.Usually when I am alone, I enjoy it, but other times I am so extremely lonely that I want to cry. Like properly bawl my eyes out. To prevent that from happening, I just put on some comedy or a song that I really love. But maybe it is good to have a cry once in a while.
I am VERY good at masking my true feelings. Some say that they don't know HOW I feel, because all they see is smiles and laughter. Maybe I should open up to them, and tell them how I really feel at a certain point in time. But that is not for now. I firstly need to think about how I am going to say it to them. Maybe in a few weeks, or maybe next year.
I know that online tests can be a bit... inconclusive.. But I took one, and it showed, that I have clear signs of a possible depression. I need to go to the doctor to see if the test is accurate, or if it is just a bit of a hag.
I will see if I can get a time on Tuesday, and then get myself checked out. I am worried about the result, to be honest.
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going out for walks can help when your down.
keeping a journal of your feelings can help too.
starting a new hobby or club, making new friends all can help
wishing you well i send smiles have a good day
Exercise boosts the neurochemicals you might be a bit low on right now.
You've just suffered a major loss in your life.
You may be experiencing the normal stages of grieving. Sometimes this involves an overwhelming sadness, which can often be confused with depression. It's natural to feel very sad. Allow yourself to work through the stages in your own time. Don't rush it.
Having said that, sometimes we can get stuck in grief and effectively it becomes akin to a reactive depression. If your sadness becomes prolonged, then by all means, contact your MD.
If you feel you've had intermittent periods of depression prior to your Dad's illness, then, again....I would contact your doctor to discuss how you are feeling with him/her.
Be mindful, however......grieving for a loved one is a normal process. It takes time.
I can recall when my own Dad died who I was very close to, I rented a small unit directly on the beach for a few months. It helped immensely in coming to terms with his death.
Be patient and give yourself time to feel the loss.
You will eventually reach a stage of acceptance with it all.
Don't feel shame trying to get help brother! Depression is PAINFUL. It drains one of their energy. You will walk around day after day, utilizing what little energy you have left only to mask that hopeless feeling.
Do not, I repeat Do not be worried about getting a professional diagnose. It will not change who you are! It is only a tool for doctors to put a plan in place to help you tackle the depression!
I am not a professional or doctor, but if you, or anyone for that matter needs to talk, message me!
But in an emergency, contact your local Crisis Center.
Hang in there my brother! It gets better!
Could it be that most of us on here have suffered simuliar
Could it be prom helping by saying how we all coped
Philip could then pick out what suits him, but i reckon him knowing lots of us on cs even care to try and support and help will go a long way
We're just offering information from our varied experience, some of which will be personal, some educated, or professional. I imagine we all contributed because firstly he asked and secondly we're trying to offer some small support.
By criticising us, perhaps you're still pushing away, maybe out of habit. Perhaps that's something to reflect on.
It's such a small thing we're doing and we probably can't do much else but listen and post comments, but it's something. It would be nice for it to be viewed and valued for what it is.