what u really want????

this question echoes in my ears few times after i opened and read some letters coming from some guys in different countries....and there is me again...answering my own question...."nahhh, it never gonna work for u like before..."

now as i am wondering how are things going why i sound so bitter..


in all honesty... i have moved on.....those were the good times and good memories conversing with two different individuals from different part of the world....they are both friends of mine nowadays....and still wish we could be friends more than forever....


now why i sound so bitter???


will i ever lost that magic feeling for love??

maybe im just tired of trusting and losing love??

whats in my head??

i still have no plans from here...


just goin with the flow.....like water ....


and this makes my life seems so slowwwwww....



haaaaaaaaaahhhhh......

what is happening to me??????




moping
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was just in my mind....if i am bound to be an old maid....i should start accepting things too at this time....what u think???moping
yes jode....it is....i almost forgot the word fun these days....i only had dull moments as u can see....???everytime my ex ask me how i was i keep telling him i dont feel beautiful...coz it really is what im feeling.....whats the matter with me???need help.....blues
... here's what u should do ... your self-esteem needs a bit of a pick me up ... make an oppointment to have your hair done ... buy yourself a new dress .. shoes .. handbag .. whatever makes you feel beautiful .. <because you are> ... Don't focus on the negative things in your life .. focus on the positive .. you are healthy, young and beautiful .. you have your whole life ahead of u .. Never forget there are people out there in the big wide world, not anywhere near as lucky as you ... not enough to eat, no where nice to live etc etc. etc .. Look at what you have in your life .. EVERYTHING .. ! It's up to you to lift yourself up out of your gloom and doom and learn to smile again .. wave
ohhh jodie....thanks for that advice...i think i really need it....it made me feel guilty of feeling this way but its a nice kick in my butt....so i could moveforward.....i need a push....wake up sign....i think i was asleep..... purple heart
Since we never know what is in store for us, accepting the idea of being an old maid this early will be selling yourself short. I had an ex. husband tell me at the age of 46 that I had better get a move on because 50 was right around the corner. In truth, I am getting more attention at the age of 50 than I ever did at any time prior. I am alright if I remain alone and if I should meet someone, then I would alright with that as well. cheers
Hi Nice & easy..You might be experiencing mid winter depression. It happens to a lot of people..The blues during this time of year..Cheer up..Your not old yet and the right guy will be out there..Just dont settle and be with any guy just to keep from being alone.
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laugh and the world laughs with you ... life is short! Get into it! yay

teddybear
@swiss....yeah maybe....and i hope soon it will end and be like me as before....thanks....hug
dont worry about what everyone else say's ,use your own brain for a change !! take some time for yourself , have a break just for you wave turn that computer off and go to the beach and get some sun dancing
thanks virgo.....maybe i should.....handshake
i bet .....that is ....grin hug
Hello
i really don't mean to sound rude
but i'm a bit confused
You developed an online relationship{s}
you fell in love
then you met them in person
and it all went wrong?
Is that true?
And now you're reluctant to go through it again?

Mike
Better start writing poems. It will make you ease from loads.
Just keep moving forward, don't always repeat something that at same place who just make dig your own old pain.
Nothing will be perfect, there always be up & down not just for life but for love relationship.

If you always look at back then you won't trust to your ownself that you are a worth girl to be someone who will love you completely.

The choosen is in yourself other people in here just give you encourage but the decision in your hands, will you stay at same place (the place that you'll keep remind of your pain) or you'll look the future & keep forward for your new chaper of your life.

Keep brave to face it wine
whatever you do,

just dont rhyme,

because you rhyme like poo.
Pee.that rhyme was not for you or any of your friend.so feel easy & secured.As this is no time to do these type of talks.i think you all are cultured more than me.
Don't keep thinking about the bad experiences of the past. Turn the page. Smile and be confident of your abilities to be a friendly person and an asset in a future relationship. People set goals when they are young. When these goals fail to materialize they quickly label themselves as failures. Every day represents a new opportunity. Go forth and mingle on line. The future belongs to you.
Hey nice i haven't sended any message to anyone.someone has hacked my code.so please try to understand .i cant do thiswith anyone.i am canceling my account.
you will move on have hope keep faith my friend
Nice and easy I think you are very beautiful and intelligent lady maybe you have been in a relationship with some one who does not entirely understand how amazing you really are but trust me some one else knows and I would love to get to know you better....
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