2014, what lesson you learned?

It's 3 days past 2014, but I think it is still relevant to talk about it.

Would you mind sharing what 2014 taught you?

Me, I guess the most important thing is that everything is relative. What I thought was the highest point turned out as my lowest as well. I thought I have finally found the one will spend the rest of my life with, I was "high" on love. Then we broke up and I reached the lowest point for the same reason.

Another thing is that at the end life is about your journey with your self, never make it with someone else. You might meet some people on your journey, friends, lover, boyfriend, soul mate, but they will only be with you as long as you are still on the same path with them. Once you make a different turn, then you have to stay true to what you have decided to walk on. Never look back as it will only make you stand still. Just walk the path, and should you meet again with people you are used to be with then let the path cross.

My ex said to me "Please don't go. I need you. I want you in my life." I told him I am not a thing he can keep in his drawer when he does not need and take it out when he does. I have my own life, my own will. It was hard for me to tell him to set me free and let me go. I cried every day, I could not sleep, I barely eat. But I know I will never be able to embrace the future if I still grieve over the past. And once I did, I feel relieved, ready for wherever future will take me.

And my dream is becoming true, a place I have long to call home is calling me. Do I still miss my ex, yes. But I have my own life to live and take care. Will we meet again as he always told me that he believes we will be together again in the future, well I don't even bother thinking about it. I have the present to live. I won't regret the past, nor worry about the future. I want to live, here, now.

Happy new year all, cheers for the present, for being here, now.