Happygolucky4u Poetry (159)

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Just woke up this morning time to start my day
Reaching for my coffee fighting the demons away
It's the memories rolling by, the mind just seems to follow
Robbing me of the day making me feel so hollow
I don't know what to do, it's still all about you

Going through the motions wanting it to change
Yet living here without you seems all to strange
No one sees the pain, no one looks inside
The smile upon my face keeps what I hide
I wish that you were here to wipe away my fear

There's a hand reaching out through this darken life
I want to reach back but I still feel like your wife
I think it is time to fight back and take the chance
Just reach back and leave the rest to circumstance
Or I could walk away and wait another day

The years are rolling by and yet I go on
Time to face the fact I'm tired of being alone
Time to give new memories their own place
Your memories will not be erased
Time to start my day, time to push the sadness away

The search was over when my eyes met yours
Holding on as passionate as a kiss
You took my breath away with just a look
With one glance it was my heart that you took
Just the gentleness of the touching souls
Two lost hearts in a world that's grown cold
I long to feel your arms wrapped around me
Some looks can just let the love inside free
Time returning replacing what it took
The ungentleness of the heartbreaks theft
What kept me so attached I am now free
This moment can only hold you and me
Winter is coming soon, right now falls here
And my heartbeats sending messages clear

Half full glass tumbled, emptied covering all light

Shadows blending into darkness till all gone

Defeats smell, putrid stench covering fight

Bleak is a world that has lost hope

Where good has succombed to evil

Closing eyes and mind to cope

Heart beating retrieval

Hope gasping for breath

Light covers dark

Evils death

Good marks

Life

Arms that hold me close nestling safely

Sunshine pouring strength into my bones

All gathered, it is time for the bell to ring

Progressing seems quicker than telephone




Reaching out to touch you but you are gone

Flowers essence that seems to linger on

Rain drops wash away all my cares today

As I trace the lines, the etching of life




Rocking chair holding dreams of once was there

Days and nights go on, no longer matter

Smile upon the lips and eyes glazed over

Is it dementia or mad hatter




Life has taken my youth it is now gone

My memories are mine leave them alone





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Gentle winds brushing back the tides of fear

Clocks ticking never stopping moving on

Coming close remains far, not even near

Sad for what might have been, but never was



Locked and hidden put away to stay gone

All my dreams now seeming so obsolete

Content to find my way in unknown ground

Where being alone seems bitterly sweet



Tides will come and go, currents will run free

The world sometimes moves at its own pace

Sometimes dreams are just exactly that dreams

Not how fast you run just finish the race



Little girl standing by familiar shore

Not wanting to play adult anymore

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Put away my basket and sewing thread

Whilst memories of how you use to be

Decidedly were better left unsaid

Each repair sewed lovingly yet still see

The scars that have changed how you once appeared

There's nothing more that I can do for you

I will don you for what you are, no more tears

There's nothing left for me to really do

Memories of colors that showed so bright

Faded replaced by a different hue

I could think of what once was or what might

Or just except you for what you've been thru

Sometimes life has a way of changing course

To move on you must let go of remorse

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Toys scattered over the play ground, lost
Taunts cries lingering as if in a stance
All gone, but one left with darkened feelings
Holding onto life's gift of second chance


Searching deeply for strength to continue
Gathering power to hold close to thee
No need for mirrors every step engraved
No one knows me better than I know me


Releasing visions of what I would like
Freeing destiny to be as it should
Paining myself by allowing it so
Letting go of what one knows is not good


Torn but still completely whole my soul bare
Some weights in life one must carry not share

It took two and a half years for me to find my voice. To know I needed to tell the story. To stop the pain from happening once more. How sometimes in life you lose because you have no choice. I needed to be heard. I knew I could find the words. Didn't want no one else to ever have to stand in my place. To feel as if they have no face. To look at the closed doors. Not human anymore. Just a number.

Walked down the hall so very proud, walking tall. Wanting to clear the air to have my say. I would speak them out loud. I would make the world care. To make the change where no one would ever know how I felt. To have no control over my life. You wielded your position like a knife. Now its my turn. I hope the world will listen and learn.

Opened the door to enter and what did I see. There were many there just like me. Wish I could say just a few. I found out I was one of thousands that already knew. How can an injustice live so long? I can tell you how. When you have no face they don't have to look at you. Your just a number not human anymore. It's not a matter if your right or wrong. To not look is how they remain so strong.

My number is very far down the line. Just another faceless number waiting in time. Frustrated angry tears fall down my cheek. You can't silence me I am going to speak. I'll leave you to go on your way. I'm just starting I am not ready to stop. If I can I will make it to the top. Just a number among many. Voices that need a say. There needs to be a change. And my voice will not be going away.

Pounding of the nails sealing for all time

Idle fascination is it a crime

Noise of children at play mirrored sounds

Old man silenced who was well past his prime




Still upon the ground barely breathing bird

Twisted wounded broken wing still can fly

Wind gently blowing bringing back to life

Soaring back to life leaving behind cry



A circle no ending no beginning

Rain producing rainbows for all to see

Peace love happiness is yours if you want

Life projects what you give is what you be



A closing of the door a brand new start

Loving life with a clean pureness of heart


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I've been searching for you

While you're searching for me

Taken my time

Taken it all so easy

Hoping you don't pass by

I've been lookin in the mirror

To see what I could see

The truth staring back at me

There will be no more lies

For I am set free

It is one step backwards

Two steps forward

I am on board

Life is for the living

And that's where I will be

There will be times of happiness

And times of tears

Life don't change

Because you walk without fear

It's not in what you say

But what you do

Please don't pass me by

I am searching for you

I had to do some rearranging

A bit of a thing called changing

I'm in no hurry

Just taking my time

Might not look like I'm seeking

But I will be hoping to find

Life is for the living

I will be living mine

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Twas the twilight creeping in thru morning

The lingering of your presence felt here still

The tears that stayed upon my heart and soul

Tears held captive no longer able to spill




Children's joys found by simple pleasures

As coffee cans turned into telephones

Skip to lou my darling darkness comes soon

Picture perfect tucked in our loving homes




Quiet leaves me here facing dreams of mist

Alive awake just not wanting to see

Preferring the comfort of the cozy

Staying in the realms of the dreams I'll be




Morning sun upon my face time to rise

Not wanting to leave my dreams how time flies


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Like the gentle clouds that float above head

Memories, times that seem to have stood still

A book with the end I not yet have read

Just holding me against my fragile will



The warmth of the comfort of knowing you

Holds me close when the chill tries to enter

No lies no suspicions for we know true

Yet summer goes away and comes winter



Can I stay warm with only memories

A cover made from the clouds up above

Or is it time to let go and fly free

To close this door and turn my back on love



A tattered rag can let the sunlight in

But want stow warmth upon me in the end


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