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Now she is laying here, can't move around doing stuffs as agilely as she used to be just a few hours ago...Doing all the things that she used to do and taking care of her are hard but it is much harder and heart-cutting to see how time cruelly lays its impacts on her health...and how i am letting down her wish for a grand child...

Next 2 days we will be celebrating her 70 years old but today she got this incident. I was so happily preparing for the event but now all i can do is wishing that she will be fine in next 2 days and better health in the time to come.

She is aging, and you know? I love her so much.

Where are you? I can do everything by myself but i can't give our mom a son-in-law, our children a dad and myself a husband without you. I can't just grab any man that i don't love. I just need you. Please come soon to bring our Moms, our children and ourselves happiness. I am really scared, scared that with Mom's getting-worse health i will not be strong and wise enough to wait for you my true love...

why haven't we met yet? Why is there so much pressure like this? Good people should deserve good things, shouldn't they? Why a very basic thing as having a small happy family is still far from our reach?

It is lunar new year here. I am staring at the stary winter night wishing for Mom's fast recovery and a magic of us (Mom, you, our kids and me) being together as a happy
Family.

Is it a satisfiable wish? :(

Today is the last day of our sheep year, it's the time for families reunion tonight and together welcome the Monkey New Year to come... It's a happy time but unfortunately that my sister disconnected with us for two years. Though I still want to take this moment to say;

Grateful to our parents for they offered themselves in fostering us...

Thankful to my friends for their support and help in my difficult time ...

I wish you all and your families a happy and prosperous Money New Year !

my special son you try everyday to understand the world by your way i know it is not Always easy for you how many times i did fight for you for a place in this crazy world how many times i need to explain strangers who u are they judging you before they know you how many times i stay on your bed to dry your tears because you dont know the world behind you damn world but remember Always i love you the way you are not how you look i dont care i hope 1 day you wil find your way in this damn crazy world son i love you

...after a delayed flight then a 3 hour bus ride she eventually got home at 2am..her daughter waited up to greet her..this morning she gave her daughter a necklace and bracelet and both said thanks....made my day to see a cute kid smile

5 or 6 yrs old


9 yrs old


15 yrs old



..and then 49...

When I look back at old photos..I don't have many...Ive forgotten to much more than I can remember..good times...bad times...but in general I have a good life and better than most..and that Im thankful for and will always appreciate.

We Latin Americans love our family. And the love that I have for my children and Grand-children says it all.

Any minute, or maybe even second, I will be a Gramp for the 4th time. My son Brandon and his gorgeous wife, Tonia, will be having their second son. Hence, my title.

Mijo is a shortened name for "mi hijo" which means "my son". I have always called Brandon "Mijo". When his son, Leo, was born I then named Leo Mini-mijo. So now that I have another one coming any moment I have christened Leo "Mini-mijo I" and the new grandson "Mini-mijo II". Hee Hee!

I am so proud of my son. He has become a real good man. I am equally proud of his wife. They love each other so much and Leo is the apple of their eye. Now they have "2 apples of their eyes"!! Hee Hee!

I will be venturing back to Ontario (CA) to see them next month. It will be good to see my kids once again.

In anticipation of all the well wishing I say thanks. I have been using the library computers and one will not be available until next Tuesday because of the weekend and Martin Luther King's birthday celebration!

When I get back I will acknowledge everyone!!

IT goes without saying mums are the ones who teach us love and care...and dads are there to show u discipline. Some do both, Id like to say I had that balance although my dad was an a** I respected both for what to be and not to be.

When I lost my dad I didn't care, never loved him, but my mum was the biggest shock. As kids,teenagers and into our 30 we don't see them as passing, so take things for granted.....don't !. ,

I was going through some old stuff and found the speech I wrote for her funeral...thought I'd share.


Jeremy clarksons mum invented Paddington bear
Mike nesbit mum from the monkees invented tipex
My mum ? She invented the single finger twix, the two bar kit Kat and an apple that looks like a potato

You see my mum her loved food, and she loved mine to. How my mum discovered these new inventions was simple. When I started my first job at 15 she made me packed lunches.. And as she was placing the sandwiches and 2 bar twix into my pack, she would come over all peckish, and one finger of twix was swiftly eaten before the lid was closed.

As time went on two bars from a 4 bar kit Kat would be found, some days just bread and butter..no filling ! When I asked mum she'd say..oh did I forget to put filling in, how we laughed, and so did my work collueges.
Every day they would wait to see me open my box. Mum got wind of this and one day there was bite marks in my sarnies and another day just a potato , nothing else.

But the real reason for this was mum was hungry, dad had left us and no support, sometimes she had no money for the filing of my sandwiches, yet hid it from me and made a joke of it. I was earning £21 a week then and gave her all my money.

I've dreaded this day all my life, none of us here realise the huge void that has been left in front of us all with mums passing. She suffered so much yet she never ever complained , hid her pain from us all, ever the mother trying to protect us all.

Mum would always asked me if I took sugar in my tea, for over thirty years, yes mum I take one...what I would give now to be at mums house, her asking me if i took sugar, something that irritated me,but something I will never hear from her again.

I know time is a healer but I also know we will be without our rock to guide us, comfort, our world was so rich with her around, nothing can ever replace that.



.....I cried the whole time I read that out...as did most listening..as did I writing it today.

My message is very simple...don't take the ones you love for granted....if you live far..go see them...call them every week...when they are gone...they are gone.

“Another fresh new year is here . . .
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”
? William Arthur Ward.. .. ...“In this new year, may you have a deep understanding of your true value and worth, an absolute faith in your unlimited potential, peace of mind in the midst of uncertainty, the confidence to let go when you need to, acceptance to replace your resistance, gratitude to open your heart, the strength to meet your challenges, great love to replace your fear, forgiveness and compassion for those who offend you, clear sight to see your best and true path, hope to dispel obscurity, the conviction to make your dreams come true, meaningful and rewarding synchronicities, dear friends who truly know and love you, a childlike trust in the benevolence of the universe, the humility to remain teachable, the wisdom to fully embrace your life exactly as it is, the understanding that every soul has its own course to follow, the discernment to recognize your own unique inner voice of truth, and the courage to learn to be still.”
? Janet Rebhan... .... “Half of the time, the Holy Ghost tries to warn us about certain people that come into our life. The other half of the time he tries to tell us that the sick feeling we get in a situation is not the other person’s fault, rather it is our own hang-ups. A life filled with bias, hatred, judgment, insecurity, fear, delusion and self-righteousness can cloud the soul of anyone you meet. Our job is never to assume,instead it is to listen, communicate, ask questions then ask more, until we know the true depth of someone’s spirit.”
? Shannon L. Alder .... .... “To make 2016 (or any other)your year, keep it simple:

1) Count your blessings first
2) Whatever you did last year, Do it better
3) Go step by step, One day at a time.
4) Create/make your own opportunities.
5) Believe in your abilities at all times,
6) Quitting is not an option. Keep Going.
7) Finish what you started”
? Pablo ..... ... .... ....“May Light always surround you;
Hope kindle and rebound you.
May your Hurts turn to Healing;
Your Heart embrace Feeling.
May Wounds become Wisdom;
Every Kindness a Prism.
May Laughter infect you;
Your Passion resurrect you.
May Goodness inspire
your Deepest Desires.
Through all that you Reach For,
May your arms Never Tire.”
? D. Simone............

You don't really get to choose your relatives, but that is no reason to associate with them. Sometimes DNA explains a lot more than you might really want to know. It seems that the holidays brings out the greedy, gift mongers, from under all of the rocks and out of all of the caves, and down from all of the trees hereabouts.
This is why I sincerely believe in Sasquatch, some of them live in my family trees. And we won't even get started on the subject of their "off-spring", (HEAVY on the term OFF .) My relatives are so evil that they have even been thrown out of the county jail!
I've got a couple of female (and I use the term female VERY loosely) cousins that started into PMS at about ten years old, and have gone severely downhill from then on... of course their mothers, (all inlaws, everyone) turned up when the state of Oregon closed down all of the mental institutions. (something about budget cuts)
This year for Christmas, before giving any handouts, I have requested picture ID's and proof of DNA, just to be prudent. (Just because you show up covered with hair and mud doesn't prove anything...) And if you are packing a weapon you become highly suspect... of just about everything.
Well, enough of this holiday spirit stuff, I have to arm all of my booby traps, (for all of the little boobys...) I get a kick out of how they squeal when they fall into them...

Merry Christmas and to all a good night...