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Every now and then we're reminded of our humble fragility, like when we feel that falling down the abyss to nothingness is the only choice we have.

It's so empowering to know, there's One out there I put my faith on and truly makes me realize my insignificance. Saving me when I feel so hopeless, which doesn't happen very often.

And despite of all the evils in this world, it's still a BEATIFUL and meaningful life.

I'm so feeling grateful after reading Non's blog.

It makes me realize, our lives is how we make it.

Please feel free to unload your down moments and comments if interested.
Thanks for your read.

good morning cs community.. wishing all a blessed day ..

across the life span, we see how that which we once knew, morphs toward the almost unrecognizable. In our mom's case, being bed bound was merely the start of the journey. The new need to be so dependent on others for most, even some quite personal, activities of daily life, can be quite a blow to formerly vibrant and independent types, especially for those who spent a lifetime caring for family ----six kids, and a gaggle of others, while working factory jobs. As in watching children mature between intervals of absence, even the small differences seem striking. Here, the tremors, depression and lack of facial expression of Parkinson's syndrome, skin darkening about extremities as one sign of failing blood circulation, labored breathing, hearing loss requiring the TV to sound like a rock concert, dentition and scalp hair long gone, and as the last days approach, that twinkle in the eyes---a sure sign of life energy, begins to fade. Almost gone as well, the ability to speak and use language, often blunt enough for us to hear what we usually needed, like it or not, and a sure sign of high intelligence in the absence of formal education---all now only soft murmurs. But rarely, a word or two can be understood. As on taking my leave, squeezing her hands and kissing her forehead. I love you mom. She responded lovingly in kind---clear enough for even the deaf to hear. Aa.

Getting ready to fire up the Swedish chariot and head down to Beantown with Bravo as navigator and resident chick magnet. Four hour trip. As always, will multitask. Visiting aging mom, and taking the family women folk, who are thereabouts on vacation, for a meal and a little Fado music, at one of the region's delightful Portuguese restaurants. Will also do a litle sniffing in Boston central with Bravo. Oh, all those young coeds. But as I watch mother's life systems slowly fade, one by one, the existential truths we all face hit hard. Now bed bound, but still fully alert and remaining in her own home, with excellent family and visiting nursing help, ---closing in on a full 90 years could be much worse. When Dad left us years ago, we all knew that, as with so many 60 year unions, when one goes, the other seems to want to follow. Hope she doesn't wind up where HE may well be. Of course, I could easily be there meself someday. Aa.

first let me say i hope all is in great health .. hope i will not be a stranger here after my long absence .

i have missed out on some juicy bits but i do hope i can catch up .

been away but i have never forgotten the circle of wonderful friends on here ..


a lot has happened since i was last on blogland .

but am keeping it real..

cheers everyone

Experiencing one of the most dreaded part of a relationship, at least to me, is when there's that uneasy moments of either you stay or leave.

What I notice is that the evaluation of the whole experience create a light that leads to that decision of either burning it or saving it. Depending on the weight of what preferences each party has, it comes down to the positive and pleasant experience over the bad and undesirable ones.

I have decided to stay because of the many reasons that I value most.

He gives me so much freedom and respect. He makes me laugh. He complements me sincerely. He loves my whole family and vice versa. Dependable and strong. Not that I require those per se.

He has none of the qualities I loath instead he has all the qualities that turns me on.

Thank you all for your reads and comments if any.

Note: in my previous blog, so many of you shared all your different and enlightening experiences and most of you suggested not to trust him again.
With the exemption of Luke, I think I read more in favor of dismantling the union.

Thanks all and I respect and loved sharing your great suggestions.

I made up my mind, not easy however, because he apologized so much, and very sincerely recognized how preventable it was.

May we all have a good day.

My friend, may you have a great birthday.

And more to come.

I am getting my beautiful 15 month old granddaughter for several months. My daughter is homeless and will be going to Cali to work for awhile to dig herself out of the hole she is in. No car, no job, and no home...trued to get her to come back here but babies dad is abusive and could potential be fatal to her.( PTSD) so, on the hunt for a sitter and maybe a more practical vehicle.
I also found a little puppy that got hurt by one of the horses, a little red heeled puppy, who is so very clever. But am looking I know when my cup is full...lol

This would be one of my rare personal topics in blog land. I wasn't going to share and let the world judge me and my situation but I thought I need it just to confirm whether my decision is right or wrong.

Here's the situation: the ex of whom I'm having a relationship with got hold of him through "kik", they talked and from the transcripts (of which I won't go into detail), they're very excited and she still calls him baby. (She left him for a millionaire with multiple businesses world wide, married him and living in the high nines). They have 30 years difference and from what I gather she misses my partner so much specially in bed.

Imagine my shock reading their conversations.

This went on for a week. He never mentioned to me about it. The worst part is he acted as though I don't exist, let alone in a relationship.

Note: I terminated our relationship and he's fighting so hard to save it. Explaining that that isn't cheating.

We're just over three years and would have been married but thank God, we're not. We are planning on buying a house together. Just couldn't make up our minds if in California or in Mid West



How do you feel, if it were you? We've been together as a couple talking about forever.

Thanks all for your reads and comments if any.

2nd Note: he'd been confirmed cheater and womanizer. However, with me, professing to have changed.

Last NOTE: I accidentally discovered the conversation. He's in the living room while I was in the bedroom where he charges his phone. It beeped and in his business, it's important for him to respond right away. My shock to realize it's his ex. I'm not spying nor snooping. Lol I think when I trust a person, I trust and not worried about what they do to hurt the relationship.

Have a great day enjoying and celebrating our independence.

May we always and forever be free.