Standing at the doorway with tears in my eyes,
Holding on to the frames, tightly with all of my strength.
I could feel my nails breaking into my flesh,
as it sinks into the wood of the door,
afraid to let go, trying to keep from falling.
Feeling light headed as everything around me begins to spin.
feeling like my legs could no longer hold my weight.
A sensation of floating is taking over.
I can no longer see what's in front of me,
everything seems to be fading.
It's only now i realize that i have not taken a breath.
There's a burning and dryness in my throat,
and i try to take a mouth full of air but nothing,
it's like something is squeezing my lungs.
The tears are now to many to count, i tried again still nothing.
Thinking i should try to make my way inside,
but still no movements in my legs.
I listen as i could barely hear the engine of the car,
as the noise fades into the night.
Feeling a need to run, just run, as fast as i can,
where to i don't know, but i just knew i wanted to see you.
And yet at the same time i wanted to get away.
What should i say, i don't know?
what should i do, i don't know?
But my heart can't stop racing,
with the thought that it's over.
But is it? Is it really, really over this time?
Will i ever see you again?
Will i ever hear your voice again?
The confusion in my head,
matched with the confusion in my heart.
I wish i knew how to feel.
Is it better to hurt, just to keep you around?
Or should i hurt by letting you go?
Questions, questions, questions... racing through my head.
Do i rather be lonely by choice?
Or is it better to be with you, and still be lonely?
Bringing myself back to now,still standing there.
Did i really just tell you that it's over?
Did i just tell you don't call ever?
Would you listen or would you convince me, not to let go.
Would i wake up and realize it was just a dream?
I closed my eyes hoping to make it all go away,
i tried again but nothing.
Thinking if you came back, what would i do?
My heart said to run and hold you tightly,
but my mind can't get pass what you've done,
and the pain you have now caused me.
I finally made it to my bed,
fully giving into the tears and the pain of betrayal.
Never thought that it would end this way.
How will i survive and how will i get through the days without you?
Then i remembered that even though you were in my life,
you were never apart of it, or really there.
Wishing now that sleep would come and take over,
this troubled mind and heart and possibly offer some relief,
to the tormenting pain that's eating away at my insides.
As my eyes grew heavy and begins to close,
I realize that despite everything i still love you,
but now, i also Hate you.
Good night my once night and shining armor,
but now, you're my executioner.
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Posted: Dec 2013
About this poem:
This was one of the most painful nights of my life, i had to put this down on paper not that i could ever forget it, but because i survived it.
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Collapsing buildings
Cities overflowing
Gusts of wind
The dark side is showing
City in tears
On the outside, they pity
They just don’t know
The depths of this city
Even after
The manmade disaster
The devil watches
With ecstatic laughter
The city was doomed
From the very start
It stopped pumping blood
Because the city is my heart
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Posted: Dec 2013
About this poem:
One of the first poems I wrote.
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I wake up one morning
To the chirping of a crow
I wake up the next
To realize everything I know
Is shattered like glass
Or chipped like wood
I want to bring it all back
Oh, I wish I could!
Maybe I’ll truly wake up
Making all of this a dream
But this is probably reality
I can tell by their screams…
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Posted: Dec 2013
About this poem:
Not one of my best, but it gets the job done. Venting thoughts.
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I met a girl
she lives on an isle
I have to tell you
she is certainly wild
A man had hurt her
and wounded her bad
It made her unhappy
and that made me sad
I cant believe
but its easy to see
how much harm
is inflicted by thee
when some think with their body
and not with their mind
they can make a girl
so hard to find
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Posted: Dec 2013
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The shadows of darkness have covered my heart
trying to live each day with a piece of me that has been torn apart.
Waking every morning with no desire to see the next day
having my coffee and cigarette with nothing pleasant to say.
Pushing through the day trying to keeping my mind occupied from sadness
another rough day with depressing problems I can't fix starts to bring out my madness.
When the day is done I come home to an empty house, it's so quiet there's not one sound
all the rooms are full of silence, with my day full of madness all I can feel is my head pound.
Sitting in my chair staying up all night dreading to see another day
the same question keeps going through my head " Is there an easier way ? "
The shadow of darkness has once again returned to haunt my life
I'm slowly getting older and im starting to think I'll never find that one and only special wife.
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Posted: Dec 2013
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I have been so blessed
but sometimes I feel so cursed
so many girls seem to like me
but some are the very worse
Some have loved me deeply
but some have been so hurt
that is why im feeling
at times it is a curse
Some say its my sign
or in my horoscope
maybe its destiny
One girl is all I hope
I see some men with envy
I see some men more fair
But I know my own uniqueness
will always still be there
Sometimes it is a blessing
and sometimes it is a curse
But whatever it ever is
I take it with the bad and good
and know it can be much worse
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Posted: Dec 2013
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SPENT ALL MY LIFE IN THIS DAZE WISHING ALL MY TROUBLES AWAY.
WISHING WAITING THINKING OF SOMETHING TO SAY.
BUT IN THE MORNING TIME WE COULD BE JUST FINE.
STAY A LITTLE WHILE ,IT COULD BE ALRIGHT,
SPENT ALL MY LIFE IN THIS DAZE.SAME FACES SURROUND THE SAME PLACE.
SPEND ALL MY LIFE IN THIS PLACE WISHING WAITING BUT ILL NEVER CHANGE.
BUT I WANT TO. I JUST WANT TO .
BUT FOR ME AND NOT YOU .
AND I HAVE BECAUSE I DID
WANT TO
AND I DID
WANT YOU
MY SOUL
IV FOUND
BY ERIC
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Posted: Dec 2013
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WHY DO I CRY
MY TEARS SO DEEP
IS IT JUST ME
MY SOUL CANT SLEEP
IV PRAYED SO HARD
I GAVE MY SOUL
IT HURT SO MUCH
I LOSE CONTROL
SHE BROKE MY SOUL
HARTS TORN APART
IT PUT MY LIFE BACK TO THE START
SO NOW I KNOW NOT WHAT TO DO
CANT STOP THIS MAN FROM LOVING YOU
SO ME I,AM HERE BEEN LEFT BEHIND
BUT AM NOT FREE MY SOULS BEEN TIED
AND HERE ALONE I SIT AND CRY
I SIT AND WIST FOR ME TO DIE
TO MUCH SADNESS TO MUCH PAIN
PLAYED MY HART JUST LIKE A GAME
KNOW NOT WHAT TO DO OR WHAT TO SAY
SO HERE I SIT AND CRY IN PAIN
SO HERE I SIT
DONE NOTHING WRONG
BUT HERE ILL SIT
TILL I GROW STRONG
XX
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Posted: Dec 2013
About this poem:
THANKS FOR READING
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Lonley tears I do weep, wishing I could find the one I seek. My heart crys,leaving my soul alone to die. My soul wishing to make my heart whole, leaving my sprit in dispare. I stare at the stars surounding lonley moon feeling all this gloom. No friend can fill this hollow hole,that I feel deep in my soul. I sit alone and begin to cry, hope diminishing,dreams fade,Im so tired of this escapade.
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Posted: Dec 2013
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Author: Unknown
You look back on all the years, of heartache and the pain,
Why someone would do that to you, screaming out in vain,
Through all the years of loving him and laughing along the way,
I loved him with all my heart until that final day,
He never saw that I loved him, he always seemed like he was mad,
No matter what I tried, it broke my heart it would always make me sad,
He put a ring on my finger and my love would never be swayed,
And through tears of joy, I will make him happy I looked up and prayed
I waited for so long for him to marry me, I could never give him a clue,
It made me question all his love, if it was really, really, true
But all the times I couldn’t tell him how I really felt,
Things I’ve should’ve said to him that would of made his heart melt,
Should have stopped so many people from getting outta line,
Showed him I was his one true love and everything would be just fine,
Or put him on a pedestal like he always did with me,
And even if he was on the couch I should have snuck and slept with him,
So he wouldn’t end up feeling lonely and our love was growing dim,
Should’ve told him I wanted to go out just him and me,
Should’ve never made him feel like someone that just made three,
I believed sometimes it was enough that I just felt this love for him
And us being broken up and apart was very, very, slim,
When there was problem, he tried so hard to solve it kinda valiantly
Should’ve made his words important like they should of mattered to me,
He finally went and got the help that made him finally be happy,
But I won’t give him a chance to be the man he was suppose to be,
I will treat him like a stranger with which I have no past,
I‘ll keep being stubborn; nothing of him will be asked,
I will forget about all the good times we shared,
Never show him any feelings; I would be too scared,
One day I will be wondering, what would have been?
If I just have given him that one last chance, no matter how thin,
I knew he loved me in my heart, I was just too proud,
My mind saying, NO HE DOESN’T! Screaming just as loud.
I have to face some things alone, its something I must face,
One day I’ll thank him, instead of putting him in his place,
And if our love was true, we will finally be at peace,
And the hate I have in my heart will finally have release
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Posted: Jan 2014
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