Childhood - the appetizing starter? Adult life - the main course?
Expected something else on the plate? So what do you do? Discuss the contents, or eat before it gets cold? No point calling a waiter - kitchen's closed. And I'm pretty sure there won't be any dessert.
MY SWEETHEART
So often when i am embrancing you,
It seems that you exist in the world
It's not easy to wonder in this world
And not lose one's way,
But the greatest happiness of all.
Is in giving joy to one's beloved.
And if the king can have his throne,
And if the bird can have his Spring's nest,
And God can have his heaven,
Then I,my sweetheart I can have you!
Following a road,we stopped at a place called "LOVE"-It`s design was a winding spiral of hearts,with jagged edges.There were burned out bridges left behind,like a worn out glove........Objectivity was oblivious through that journey,and cast aside,like a pebble thrown in a river churning from a stream-A romance rippled a furor that was complacent in that ride..........There was a charmer who sought and was enhanced by Eve.Her curves were the magic that had been sprinkled on a dream-A kiss or two,a touch,were a comprimise to perceive.........Thus the lovers had intermingled, in a heartfelt romance.Tranquil voices flowed,across the miles,in endless time-Spoken words glimmered,starting that familiar dance........No distance had seemed to compensate their affection.Tenderly,they clung to each other`s passionate embrace-they knew no promises of expressive objection.........There seemed no accountability,when desolation was at hand.They were easily parted without respect of resolve-Without a thought of empathy,like a candle lost in the sand.......Suddenly,without warning,obstacles befelt the paradox of hope.Invading the vision of paradise,was a lover`s quarrel-the uncertainty was the fork in the road,and they could not cope.........Whatever had been disolved,never had been adhered.Sometimes things end that were not to be at all-with no depth claimed,no consequense,no resolve appeared........No flowers to press in a book,in it`s pages,neath a cover.Neither the mark of a pen,or thought of a written word.Only time can mark and distinguish the flame of a lost lover........No one can banish thoroughly,or comprehend the connection-and the unexplained magic,that was their journey of love-Only the lovers know the melody of how & why their song could end.
should one express their feelings?
shall I lay my heart out bare?
to one I'm not permitted to cherish
is it wrong to say I care?
I wish to only share my leaning
yet my emotion's danger fraught
how may I speak the words of meaning?
a constant struggle with my thought
perhaps remain forever silent
wise course, could be a normal man
accept that some things were never meant
to be spoken save for they can
but turn my back on all that feeds me?
on passions path, I vowed to follow
I'm at a place, I should never be
where all my past musings ring hollow
for quite a while now it's been clear
how I feel, what must be said
prudence ever alerts the fear
for 'tis another she has wed
oh, there's more here for to know
of the one that leaves me wild
she projects that robust glow
of woman carrying her child
her first, the birth is due in may
she said, it is to be a boy
perhaps there's nothing more to say
her eyes, her heart, her love, her joy
should I be the fool and tell her?
my need, to hold her in my arms
and me, be held alone in her eyes
forever one within her charms
but no, I can not, so I shall not
disturb the life of one so dear
I must show real love for another
and merely wipe away my tears
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Writing and Poetry
Sometimes
Sometimes I wonder why I'm in this world
Sometimes I wonder if I was gone would anyone care
Sometimes I say to myself
I'm here for a reason
But sometimes I think to myself
What is that reason for
Sometimes it's hard for me to live my life
Sometimes I just break down and cry
Sometimes I think why this had to happen to me
Out of all the people in this world
It had to be me
Sometimes I imagine how my life would be
If I was just normal
But that's hard to imagine
Because it's never going to happen
Sometimes I ask God
Why is my life so hard to live
But sometimes I know he's looking down at me
Saying you were met to be like this
Sometimes people say my life ain't that hard to live
Sometimes I want those people to be in my shoes
To see how my life actually is
Sometimes my life could be easy
Sometimes my life could be hard
Sometimes I don't even care about my life
Sometimes I just wish I would die
Sometimes I don't have anyone to go to
Because sometimes I know some people don't care
Sometimes I need someone who understands
Sometimes I don't need someone who don't give a damn
Sometimes people say keep your head up and you'll get through it
Sometimes people don't understand
It's hard for me to keep my head up and get through it
Sometimes I know God is watching me
And God knows where I'm heading
BY RYAN WILHELM JULI 6,2008
My anger controls me
Controls all aspects of my life
Inside and outside
There is no escape
Those who know me will
Well stay away
For my anger
I well unleash upon them
And the world would suffer with them
I give them a stare
That says plainly
'Don't disturb me or you die.'
So all my friends
Are effected by
My anger.
And in the end
I well stand alone.
Forever in my anger.
Day after Days,
Night after Night,
The world moves as I stay still.
Staring at my plain dark bedroom wall.
Mother knocks on my door, but I feel too numb to answer
She cries, but I motionlessly don't answer.
I lie on my bed,
Screaming in my head.
Pain forever with me never leaving.
It goes with me everywhere.
Like my shadow,
Constantly there.
Now my sister turning into darkness.
She will before long be just like her brother.
And mother will soon give in.
The echo of glass breaking,
The sound of my mother screaming,
And me still emotionless as I lay.
The doors are slamming.
More glasses breaking.
And me just falling,
With no delay.
Now the house grows dark.
Only the noise of the wind and the crickets grows.
And for me I have now been swallowed by the darkness.
And all my fears have come true.
Current mood: sad
Category: Writing and Poetry
I TRY
I cry to make things better
hoping the pain will go away
I write you a letter
hoping I'd have the nerve to give it to you today
Time keeps passing by
and this heart of mine aches
To get you in my life I try
But I'm scared to make mistakes
What if you reject me
and tear this heart of mine apart
Then I'll stand there melancholy
for again someone has broken my heart
But maybe you feel the same
just haven't the courage to say
You too scribble my name
every passing day
No that isn't possible
again I'm living a dream
I'll soon be in the hospital
once the pain of rejection makes me scream
So I'll remain hidden
hoping one day you notice me
for telling you is forbidden
For I can't make things be