The other thing that they had in common was this. They fully embraced vulnerability. Theybelieved that what made them vulnerable made them beautiful. They didn't talk about vulnerabilitybeing comfortable, nor did they talk about it being excruciating - as I had heard it earlier in theshame interviewing. They just talked about it being necessary. They talked about the willingness tosay "I love you" first, the willingness to do something where there are no guarantees, thewillingness to breathe through waiting for the doctor to call after your mammogram. They're willingto invest in a relationship that may or may not work out. They thought this was fundamental.
I personally thought it was betrayal. I could not believe I had pledged allegiance to research - thedefinition of research is to control and predict, to study phenomena, for the explicit reason tocontrol and predict. And now my mission to control and predict had turned up the answer that theway to live is with vulnerability and to stop controlling and predicting. This led to a little breakdown - (Laughter) - which actually looked more like this. (Laughter) And it did. I called it a breakdown, my therapist calls it a spiritual awakening. A spiritual awakening sounds better than breakdown, butI assure you it was a breakdown. And I had to put my data away and go find a therapist. Let metell you something: you know who you are when you call your friends and say, "I think I need tosee somebody. Do you have any recommendations?" Because about five of my friends were like, "Wooo. I wouldn't want to be your therapist." (Laughter) I was like, "What does that mean?" Andthey're like, "I'm just saying, you know. Don't bring your measuring stick." I was like,
"Okay."
So I found a therapist. My first meeting with her, Diana - I brought in my list of the way the whole-hearted live, and I sat down. And she said, "How are you?" And I said, "I'm great. I'm okay." Shesaid, "What's going on?" And this is a therapist who sees therapists, because we have to go tothose, because their B.S. meters are good. (Laughter) And so I said, "Here's the thing, I'mstruggling." And she said, "What's the struggle?" And I said, "Well,
I have a vulnerability issue. And I know that vulnerability is the core of shame and fear and ourstruggle for worthiness, but it appears that it's also the birthplace of joy, of creativity, of belonging, of love. And I think I have a problem, and I need some help." And I said, "But here's the thing, nofamily stuff, no childhood shit." (Laughter) "I just need some strategies." (Laughter) (Applause) Thank you. So she goes like this. (Laughter) And then I said, "It's bad, right?" And she said, "It'sneither good, nor bad." (Laughter) "It just is what it is." And I said, "Oh my God, this is going tosuck." (Laughter)
Lol first toilet paper then hand soap now Illinois seems to panic closing schools for two weeks and all restaurants and bars (taverns)and the states regulated casinos are also forced to close even Walmart limiting hours 6am to 11pm on 24 hour stores guess I'll crawl back in bed and wait this out
Boring and unglamorous subject, yes, but blast it, a real problem. I sit at a computer most of the day, and in summer, even cold days, my ankles puff up.
I start every day with ankles like a racehorse and end it with shirehorse fetlocks.
I'm up and down the whole time getting coffee, I walk the dog every day, and I do a dance routine to keep fit at least 4 times a week, so it isn't lack of exercise. Same routine, winter and summer, why does it only happen in summer, and can anyone tell me how to stop it happening?
I'd never heard of this before - insulin for non-diabetics, as a way to lose weight. A man in his early 70s that I know has recently started it, because his overweight daughter did. I looked it up, and seems there's quite a trend, mainly in the US. They are not in the US but their doctor is providing the stuff and monitoring quantities and, presumably, their health.
Changing the body's chemical make-up - AND knowing that diabetics struggle to rid themselves of stored bellyfat when they start on insulin - is surely not a great idea, but father and daughter are both very happy so far with reduced appetite and steady weightloss, don't mind the occasional attack of biliousness. Both are pretty large.
Anyone know more pros and cons - literally asking for a friend, since his wife (a naturally skinny wench who therefore Doesn't Understand How Hard It Is To Lose Weight) is absolutely appalled.
I have an answer in my mind. I will ask a question and see if any would answer the same.
The question is : Why do we lose weight when exercise provided we maintain the same diet
This is And God speaks to you (Page four)
This page is hope for you:
I write it here nor eimal my darling I love you so much because you are so wonderful!
No matter what others say.
No matter you are who or what and what you've experienced, if you arm or I are rich will be always there for you. I'm standing right in front of you and look at you. No matter where are you and what you're doing whether you're awake or asleep I'm with you.
Give me your hand and let me lead you into the light.
Come out of your dark room trust you at the door because I created the world so beautifully for you and you are worth much more than you think.
Get rid of your black clothes and something colorful put on something that lets you shine again and you'll see that you're still much nicer than you think, because you're so beautiful ichnwill that you live I want that you're happy and charming smile show din what you've hidden so long.
Baby I love you so much I'm happy if I can help you.
Everything about you is perfect and you're the most beautiful thing I've ever created because you're unique none has such great eyes like you even if you sometimes sad look,.
No matter whether so many tears left so I can let you shine again.
I see your beautiful soul that has become dirty only somewhat by the evil.
I your God I'm heaven wants your soul clean that stole with the Sun to the bet.
I have created so beautiful your body and nothing I do not like it. No matter what others say you're beautiful.
No perfect.
Let's talk up anything. You are just amazing and I am delighted that there you are.
Believe me my child your heart can love so free how you have never experienced it.
Verily I say unto you search me and I will let you find me no matter where you are right now.
Go in a quiet corner where the evil don't can be distracted us pray with all your strength the following: Dear God, thank you that you so love me as I am.
You can see where I've really been a bad person in the past and actually I didn't earn it Yes, but I thank you that you never left me and always protected me.
I thank you that you love me so much, and to save me your son on the cross have let die.
Please, in my heart, and sink all evil come out and forgive me where I have sinned and was angry.
I want to feel not bad I want to no longer to live.
I want your love that fills me.
Give me your spirit and will be my man so that the devil has no power over me.
Amen
Do you feel this deep peace which I gave to you now?
This is already a down payment on what still is waiting for you as I said I am a God who keeps his promises.
Thank you that you want to live with me and I will be always with you and love you.
I meet friends in the nature, and I'm going to be the flower that's your flower to applies. I'm going to be the scent of friends say I love you. I'm going to be the chirping bird who's sings his song to.
I'm going to be the soft wind that gently caressing you I will be with you where you are because I your father in heaven your God love you
All that this letter read please copied dien text from all 4 parts in a text file and you prints and distributes it to that which God has done to friends.
Because since where no hope seems to be that it should give hope to this letter.
God bless this letter where he reads and I thank Amen you so much that I was allowed to him for you to disc in your name