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20/20...perfect vision.

2020...something revealed....enlightenment...perhaps

Was going to write on sleep hygiene, or issues north and south/east and west, nationalism speaking, but C's blog got me coveting my CS neighbor's goods. A visit from the CS cyberscrutinizer? How unfair. With all my highly copious and acerbic ranting here, and not a few bidirectional personal attacks, on everything from my intelligence, to my stature, to my age appropriate shrinking manhood,----well, my envy almost got the best of me, my fair minded CS fellow bozos on the bus. So this BLOG. Don't you all think it unfair that I am being so cavalierly and unjustly overlooked? Why, for all I do to stirr things up here, and to get a few limited number of brain neurons French kissing, you'd think that CS would visit me. Not merely on the shamelessly lavishly appointed CS member home visit traveling van. But in the IT ether herself, AND a few nights on the manicured VIERK mansion kilometer long driveways. With all holds on the van chock full of wonderful and expensive presents, for..........................................ME! The servants would be glad to haul it all into one of the guest cottages. Ah, but long ago, in another life, concerning jealousies, I learned---that it's not a fair universe, and---"Eifersucht ist eine Leidenschaft,-wer mit Eifer sucht, was Leiden schaft". Hope this isn't the hook for the VIERK. Alors, Pereat les narcissismes, sur CS.

...........Remember, if you can be successful once, you can get back up, dust yourself off, and do it again.

You only need to remember one person who did. Tiger Woods.
He was once the best golfer in the world, on top of his game, and unbeatable on most weekends. Then one Thanksgiving weekend he was pulled over by the police and checked for a DUI. He was alcohol free but was on prescription meds. Woods also had to deal with the damage done from a very public and scandalous divorce.

Woods’s return to the top garnered praise from world leaders and sporting greats alike, with United States president Donald Trump and his predecessor Barack Obama both offering congratulations via social media.

“Congratulations to @TigerWoods,” tweeted Trump, who earlier this year played golf with Woods. “A truly Great Champion!”

Nicklaus, 23-times tennis grand slam winner Serena Williams, Super Bowl champion Tom Brady also applauded the victory on Twitter while swimmer Michael Phelps, the winner of a record 23 Olympic gold medals, was at Augusta National to cheer Woods on.

Written off as too old and too beaten up from four back surgeries and multiple knee operations, Woods underwent a back fusion procedure in 2017 and slowly returned to form.

He ended last season by winning the Tour Championship and showed signs of a breakthrough at the majors by being a title contender at last year’s British Open, where he led in the final round, and PGA Championship, where he finished runner-up.

All those moments built to Sunday, when Woods was once again his old familiar dominating self.

“I had serious doubts after what transpired a couple years ago,” said Woods. “I could barely walk. I couldn’t sit. Couldn’t lay down. I really couldn’t do much of anything.

“Luckily I had the procedure on my back, which gave me a chance at having a normal life.

“To have the opportunity to come back like this it is probably one of the biggest wins I’ve ever had for sure because of it.”

A man has been mauled to death by a lion at a zoo after he climbed over a 7.6m fence to take a selfie with the beast.

Prahlad Gujjar from Rajasthan, India, entered the non-public enclosure that housed the lion at Sri Venkateswara Zoological Park by climbing over the fence.

Desperate for a selfie, the 38-year-old ignored a zookeeper’s warning to step away from the lion and continued to get closer to the large cat.

Before the zookeeper could intervene, Dongalpur the lion mauled the man to death.

It's nice to see people enjoying interactions with each other. I'm working on trying to be more tolerant of loudness, especially in cackling/chortling laughter. The hearing impaired do have a tendency to talk louder, and alcohol deadens the eighth cranial nerve, so we have loud chats in bars. But sober, normal hearing folks in otherwise quiet cafe venues provide their own special sort of distraction. Earbuds and music streaming help.

Starting on July 1st, I have laid a budget, that I am going to adhere by. I made a spreadsheet, where I wrote my income and my expenditures, and when all is said and done, I will have money left. That's the benefit of moving to a place where I know my rent in advance. Where I have a flat fee to pay. I also came to realize, that I have too many streaming services. I spend $109 a month just on streaming. I need to look into cutting down on them.. But I need them all.. I might just keep them all, actually. They are pretty handy to have, and I will not run out of content anytime soon.

Now it's time for some money stuff! The biggest post I have, apart from rent, is my food budget. A massive $196 in total each month. What can I say, I am a foodie.. I am always looking for ways to improve my cooking.. Anyway.. I have three expensive months, and nine "cheap" months. The expensive months, I spend $1244, and on the "cheap months, I spend $1211. I get $1474 each month, so when all is paid, and I have put some money into savings, I will still have money left over. That's a first for me, since I used to spend all my money in 14 days.. Sometimes 7 days.. When I moved to Scotland, I got the biggest reality check ever, which I needed. Since then, I have been managing my money. Rarely have I fallen behind on bills, and it's almost six years ago since I came back home.

Speaking of saving up money.. My dream is to own a house. It doesn't matter where it is, as long as it's mine. Or maybe just an apartment somewhere. Apartments are cheaper than houses anyway.. But I would like to own some property one day. I am thinking with my trucking job, I can save up even more than I am now, because if I don't change my spending habits, I can comfortably send almost triple into my savings than what I do now.

But we'll see what happens. Right now, I plan to hold my budget for three years, minimum. I am sure it's doable!

Dreams are very funny stuff:
Some people believe that they are a prediction of the future, warning, wishes come true, as long as they just behave or act a certain way. Thus your dreams are manipulating you as much as if it was people telling you what to do and you act with total acquiescence.

Lots of predictions are determined from people dreaming it, and believing it. We have Nostradamus for example. Ever heard of him? Ever read his writings? It can be used for just about any happening closely matched. So can we believe that the future can be predicted, or if De Javu is possible? Wishfull thinking or Proof?

Now are we clever or very stupid, is the question!

OK, dozens of posts, fora and blogs on the topic. But getting a little technical, how about recalling them? Variables here. How vivid they might be. How much they relate to our lives, characters included. Wake up time---struggles to recall them---presence of distractions. Multiple and o*gasm ones. Ruses to aid recall. Persistance at such. Dream content---benign or troublesome. Sleep movements---somnambulistic, attacking bed partner. Repeat dreams, or some similar to day dreams. Hypnogogic/hypnopompic phenomena. Attempts to modify our dreams. Uses in talk therapies. Nightmares. Childhood traumatic recall ones. Dream heavy and scarce periods. After drinking/drugging. Dissociative phenomena. Lots more, but this ought to do for now. I had a half year run of almost none. Past few weeks, been bombarded. Ueber vivid, with many familiar characters. And can recall almost all even after breakfast, which is unusual. And now when one appears lost, a little help (alphabet soup, etc.) and it's back. WTF?

We all believe that we are unique, and yes you are unique, in that no-one will find another you anywhere on earth, but what about your offspring, are they not a part of you however remote, it might appear to you and others? Honest opinions please? And No bull-shitting?

The other day, I wrote a blog about me being lonely, and someone commented and asked if I was maybe depressed? To tell you the truth: I don't know. Maybe.

Usually when I am alone, I enjoy it, but other times I am so extremely lonely that I want to cry. Like properly bawl my eyes out. To prevent that from happening, I just put on some comedy or a song that I really love. But maybe it is good to have a cry once in a while.

I am VERY good at masking my true feelings. Some say that they don't know HOW I feel, because all they see is smiles and laughter. Maybe I should open up to them, and tell them how I really feel at a certain point in time. But that is not for now. I firstly need to think about how I am going to say it to them. Maybe in a few weeks, or maybe next year.

I know that online tests can be a bit... inconclusive.. But I took one, and it showed, that I have clear signs of a possible depression. I need to go to the doctor to see if the test is accurate, or if it is just a bit of a hag.

I will see if I can get a time on Tuesday, and then get myself checked out. I am worried about the result, to be honest.