True crime is not healthy for my mental health..I am currently in the process of listening to every episode of a show called The Casual Criminalist. It's a true crime show, where the crimes can be horrific. Each episode is about a new person, and they detail the crimes they did. It's not for the faint of heart, and some of the crimes are just down gruesome.
One episode was about the Dunblane massacre, where a lowlife ended the lives of 16 children, aged between 5 and 6, and their teacher, while injuring 15 other people.
That episode left me shocked to my core. Who on earth decides to end the lives of 16 children aged 5 to 6? The lowlife did us all a favor and ended his miserable existence right there, but still. Something MUST have snapped in order for someone to slaughter 16 innocent children..
Today, my day started out pretty normal. I had breakfast, brushed my teeth and left for work, like I usually do. However, at about 9.30 am, I was suddenly hit with a specific sense.
You know that feeling when nothing you love to do makes you happy? The sense of sadness, emptiness and hopelessness? It was like that. I had a google at what that could mean, and it's some of the symptoms of depression. I'm not saying I suffer from depression - yet - but I will suffer from it if I continue to listen to true crime podcasts 9 hours in a row, because that's what I did on Sunday, while I was playing truck simulator games.
So I have made a decision: No more true crime podcasts for at least 6 months. I will find something else to listen to. Luckily there are millions of songs to consume while I am playing truck sim games.