*verse1*
Boom Boom Boom
There goes the chaos swarming again.
Boom Boom Boom
The longer it’s held in, it gets stronger.
Boom Boom Boom
You wanna let it all out in the open,
But no!
Freedom’s hard to gain
And!
It’s never easy
To!
Come clean and say it loud!
*chorus*
Boom Boom Boom!
The emotions are wellin’ up
Moving closer to the breaking point!
Boom Boom Boom!
How sickening the feeling
Of drowning your true self in the shadows of your fear!
Boom Boom Boom!
But it’s never that easy
To get all the words out there
To get all your heart out there
I am trapped in the limbo
Of confusion and conflict!
Boom Boom Boom!!
*verse2*
Boom Boom Boom
The feeling consumes without mercy.
Boom Boom Boom
The longer it’s held back, it grows more dangerous.
Boom Boom Boom
I wanna let it all out in the open,
But no!
Freedom’s hard to gain
And!
It’s never easy
To!
Come clean and free yourself!
*chorus*
Boom Boom Boom!
The emotions are wellin’ up
Moving closer to the breaking point!
Boom Boom Boom!
How sickening the feeling
Of drowning your true self in the shadows of your fear!
Boom Boom Boom!
But it’s never that easy
To get all the words out there
To get all your heart out there
I am trapped in the limbo
Of confusion and conflict!
Boom Boom Boom!!
*bridge*
(LET IT OUT)
This heart of mine
(FREE YOURSELF)
I can’t help but wonder
(SAY IT NOW)
If it has just been
(SAVE YOURSELF)
Lying all this time
(LET IT OUT)
This heart of mine
(FREE YOURSELF)
I can’t help but wonder
(SAY IT NOW)
If it’s really just been
(SAVE YOURSELF)
Lying all this time…
Come out and declare yourself!
*chorus*
Boom Boom Boom!
The emotions are wellin’ up
Moving closer to the breaking point!
Boom Boom Boom!
How sickening the feeling
Of drowning your true self in the shadows of your fear!
Boom Boom Boom!
But it’s never that easy
To get all the words out there
To get all your heart out there
I am trapped in the limbo
Of confusion and conflict!
Boom Boom Boom!!
Come out, there’s nothin’ to fear!
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Posted: Apr 2012
About this poem:
Questioning one's sexuality is a painful, confusing experience, especially if you realize you aren't what you thought you'd be. Every time I thought "could I be a lesbian?", I'd get this tightness in my chest and feel like I might pass out due to the stress of it. (the "boom boom boom" parts kinda represent the quickening of a heartbeat during an anxiety attack) But I finally came out about all this, and it was liberating (hence the last line). That "sick" feeling almost completely went away, and for the first time in months, I felt at peace with myself.
This is the most recent song of mine. Hope you guys like! (I'll post a link to a MIDI of the melody soon)
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You won't let me love you,
It's ashame, so sad yet true,
Tell me now what do I do?
Tell me how will I get through?
If you knew what you meant to me,
You would know we were meant to be,
But maybe I am wrong, unfortunately,
Not good enough, all along I couldn't see.
I only wanted to gain your trust,
But obviously, it wasn't enough,
What I wouldn't do, to feel your touch,
One more time, I miss you so much!
I did all I could, to keep you near,
I gave it my all, blood, sweat and tear,
Why you left me, still isn't clear,
A life without you, I truly fear!
You made me smile, and made me complete,
Only for awhile, but your loving was sweet,
It wasn't long, before you swept me off my feet,
With you I belong, without you I am beat.
You called me a cheater and a liar,
Eventhough you are my only desire,
You are my heart, my soul, my fire,
I love you to death, until I expire.
You won't let me love you,
It's ashame, so sad yet true,
Tell me now what do I do?
Tell me how will I get through?
I tell you time and time again,
But I don't think you comprehend,
What I am feeling deep within,
And what I mean, it's a no-win.
I wish you would open your eyes,
Instead of feeding into men's lies,
I'm not like them, when will you realize?
Your heart I can mend, you'd be surprised!
I never hurt you, and never will,
But do I deserve you? I doubt it still,
The hole in your heart, I can refill,
Give me the okay, I'll start, real deal.
To take your hand in marriage,
Is my ideal life, living life lavish,
To make you my wife, all the rest I'd salvage,
Cause being with you, is all that matters!
I miss our talks,
I miss our walks,
Your presence still stalks,
My mind like the hawks.
You won't let me love you,
It's ashame, so sad yet true,
Tell me now what do I do?
Tell me how will I get through?
Without you I'm nothing,
But with you I'm something,
No matter your assumptions,
Case closed, end of discussion.
You tell me you love me and care,
But I'm over here, and you're there,
I could shed a tear, this life unfair,
All I want is my dear, this life we shared.
Driving down this one-way road,
No turning back, I'm losing control,
I just want you back, that's all I know,
With each day that subtracts, another day untold.
Of what my future may hold,
Us together, growing old?
Us forever, or should I fold?
Leave you, never, you are my gold!
You are my treasure,
You are my pleasure,
And my endeavor,
Together life will get better.
But you won't let me love you,
It is ashame, so sad yet true,
Tell me now what do I do?
Tell me how will I get through?
Can I love you?
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Posted: Jun 2012
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LOVE POEM
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