WHEN DEATH CALL IS SO CLOSE

A lesson learned. Please make it a point to have yearly exam even if you don't feel pain or sick. Cancer when found out chances are, it is far too advance.

This is the main point of my blog why I brave to share it all 100 percent. For us all to learn. When they discovered the first time (1998), I didn't feel no pain and so I questioned the Specialists at first, thinking they just wanted to use my insurance, as I had the best coverage between me and my husband then. No deductible, no co-pay, (my ex was an engineer at the best union of the world, during that time) but after four independent specialists, I was rotten to the core and dying albeit no sign. Just my yearly exam..

They were going to cut me on November 26, after series of intensive and extensive exams, but felt no pain at all so I said: " No, cut me after this last holidays I have left with no pain"

And so it did...

A very different from all of my blogs and I am dedicating this poem I just posted at the PC for all SURVIVORS OF ANY KIND OF BATTLE they have been through.

Today is the second anniversary of my clearance from a very tough cancer (one in a million) kind, where I was declared to live at most of 90 days and with the help of all my specialists (6) and the one I loved then, who went through step by step with me on this journey, I am forever grateful..

To breath every second of your life, knowingly so that, any moment is to come, you will feel the inner strength within you and feel like a winner. Never lose sight of the fact that life is too short and therefore spend it usefully and positively and thankfully.

Thank you all for your comments and contributions and would welcome anyone to share their experience of nearly giving up at one time or another. It is very cathartic to say the least..

Did it ever changed your life? How?


MY STRENGTH
by: lindsyjones


deliverance of my strength
rising up to the melody
of my weakness
confidence and robust trust
with you I am melted
reduced to the submission
of my indomitable will
relentlessly yet yielding
into the claws of your dominance

impaired and restrained
I am swimming
in the wilderness of obscurity
with the intensity of abominable
and injurious apathy
I am, for once, dwindling
in the plight of the wind
dignity and pride escape me
but not losing sight
of the last drop of hope
I will hang unto

and as the seagulls
fly over me one more time
halfway buried
in the arid heat of the sand
as their eyes pierce me
with disdain and contempt
advancing towards my harmed
and languid body
I will not laugh, nor will I cry
but stand on my last ounce of force
shout back...

"is this all you've got?"

and while bleeding halfway to death
I will not give up!!

I will gather back all my strength
and with my fist curled up to the sky
believing one last time-

this is my one and only life..
only me can save me
from my own self destruct
and with the choirs of the angels
I rise up
with my will intact
never to lose this battle
I will fight back

because...

my strength is unbroken
my hope is unyielding
my love is forgiving
and I...am still standing
fighting, with all my strength
until my last breath is charged

there is no other way.

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