Only five weeks away, Ven, goodness and Summer is coming to visit you she tells me, then I might just come along too. Have to be aweekend though for me, then we can do foodie things...
I'll do meat and fish, I trained as a chef, so I work my way around my larder. I gave up professionally, because I had children and went into teaching...
Oh you seem so fragile. It almost breaks my heart.
Stress will not hurt you, we need to push ourselves sometimes to check our comfort zones, so we know our limits.
A bar job, may make sense for now, bring in some money, while you search what you want to do.
What my son did last year in Austria, was wash cars for people, at their homes. Then that progreseed to gardening for elderly people, and he spent the summer doing that, he earned money, had a great time and had some splash cash to do as he liked...
You have to start thinking now, get yourself out there and do something, even if cleaning cars, windows, stacking shelves at the food store...
Marial arts is a great path for ousting frustrations.
Weapons, I am not sure about, but if you are looking into the history of them, then you can absorb yourself in that.
Writing and art is a fantastic way to express yourself, and you have no trouble in doing that, so, write here about a happy time in your life, rejog your memory to a time where you felt free, happy and carefree!
Instead of fighting all the good advice, why don't you print this thread out and re-read it?
Do you have any hobbies? Get a cat, so that you have something that you can look after, a being that you can show your love to and love and nurture, I know it sounds a silly suggestion, but it does work, you seem like you have no purpose at the moment and I think you need to speak to a professional who can help you kickstart yourself into a better place.
We are all on a diet, isn't what we eat our daily diet?
I can gain my essential nutrients witj food alone, fruit, vegetables, I don't wat many carbohydrates, but I eat enough to keep me equipped with the right amount, I eat little fat, but I never eat anything that is not natural, such as those yucky digusting spreads that stick to the roof of your mouth.
Cheese is my favourite of all time, although I do not overdo it, because of the fat content, but it is my treat like some women see chocolate as theirs.
I don't treat eating as a sin, I manage to maintain a good healthy diet, I don't look too shabby for my age, and I am not overweight, exercise and feel quite healthy.
Food should be loved and cherished, I love homegrown produce, dislike supermarkets, but somehow cannot avoid them, I do my best, but I do manage to feed myself from one market shop a week which costs me around 30euros for just me, when I have the children or guests with me, then obviously that is more.
Food is a passion of mine, I go to market each Saturday here and the pleasure I get from buying local produce and seeing the vendors speak of the food they have grown themselves and the joy and love they have put into it is a wonderful feeling for me.
Gimme a Saturday morning, going to the local market, buying goodies and there is even a wine stall at the market, a lovely bottle of wine, home to my place and lunch on the balcony with a man, in the sun...
I have light macs that are light, colourful and easy to tote about, fold easily into my luggage. I have around six, a vareity of colours. Small hand umbrella for my handbag and a scarf for my head, always in my purse.
I am going to talk to you as I would my son. If he was coming out with these words.
Firstly, you are not pathetic. So remove that thought.
You are expressing some negative thoughts and we all have them, I don't care who says they do not, we all have our down days, I do.
Yes, at the moment you are coming across as dull, miserable and unappealing. But that is not so hard to change. And I don't for a moment, there is not an interesting, kind, exciting, handsome young man in there somewhere. If we don't have negative thoughts, how do we know when we are having postive ones?
You know what I think you should do? I think you should put some good old fashioned music on, Dean Martin say, find a girl, hell go out into the street, with a smile on your face and ask the first girl that you meet if she wants to dance with you.
Then, get some icecream from the store, lift the lid and put some good old comedy on the TV. Eat the icecream, and if the girl is still there, get an extra spoon.
Eat it all, the whole tub.
Failing that, call your mum, ask her for a hug, and to cook your favourite meal and go and have a sob and a sleep with her close by, if not your mum, then the closest member of your family.
Sob until you can son no more, it is not nice nor is it pretty, but it will exhaust you and it will get it out there.
Nobody will understand you until the cause is known, find the cause of what is making you feel like this and grab it by the horns and tell it, I have seen enough of you and I don;t want you to come back for a long time...
Find some tools to deal with these dark periods, yoga, swimming, always helps me, if I feel as you are, I go for a swim and the water relaxes me...
Revitalise your body, give it a cold shower and practice smiling in the mirror, and take some pictures...
Then post them on your profile and come back and 'Hello world, I'm here'
RE: what is wrong with him?
I'm being a suspicious cow and going with Lethal, there is more to this than meets the eye..It is not normal for a neighbour to be this way, or any person for that matter.