You would have been impressed J, he was brilliant.
Yes, one thing I am grateful for is my grandmother's influence as a child in that having a closed mind could be very dangerous and to always explore my curiosity and my feelings.
How could you want a beach and lovely lady ladies when there is a ferret on a leaky ship to be had, all sweaty and mucky and looking at you with those eyes???
I had to smile at your post. Especially the bit about shooting at your sister's dolls.
You are giving yourself too hard a time. Forgive yourself.
I'll tell you what I did when I was ten.
My dad had this goldfish pond, I used to catch them in a net and lay them in the sun and watch them wriggle to death. Then I was so scared my dad would notice that I buried them in the garden and then my dad had it tarmaced.
Oh the guilt, it was only when I was 21 that I fessed up to him and he said he often wondered where his goldfish had gone and had spent years shouting at the cat for it...
I am not suggesting at any time that it is okay to treat animals in this way and I sort of get where you are coming from a little.
My brother once decided to bathe a kitten, in cold water. Poor thing was in shock and it died.
RE: The voyages and adventures of the Connectus and the Singulus
Raises eyebrow.