For quick reference you can practice an hour a day and it'll take 30 years.
With skill and quality practice you may become "good" to the ear of non-players in a couple thousand hours. 5-6 years at an hour a day.
Young players often log those hours much quicker. Sometimes spending all day practicing in their bedrooms. That 30 years comes down to 5 when logging 40 hours a week.
A lot of your more famous musicians are completely socially awkward, as a result of their awkwardness they logged practice hours in their youth instead of socializing, often as a coping mechanism to deal with isolation.
Some depression is just chemical, but a lot of times it can be environmental/circumstance driven. It's a good Idea to talk to someone, you may be suffering needlessly and not even need medication.
I might suggest getting outside more, as that helps a lot of people and you might try that thinking it will help but what I don't know is that you're not physically safe in your home or lack food security or something and fresh air/time in nature or more exercise isn't going to help you at all.
We see it some here, but it's almost completely limited(in Michigan) to the upscale groceries, and is widely viewed as odd-extreme PC-hippy-ish behavior.
The internet was a different place, frequented by a very different demographic.
It's so ubiquitous it's easy to forget how young it is.
For a little perspective....
Myspace was founded in 2003, Facebook about six months later in 2004.
Okcupid, and POF also formed in 2004.
The forums were more interesting, because early adopters are more interesting people as a group. People didn't stay to have social noise in their lives, they stayed because they had more interesting, funny, insightful interactions here than they were finding offline. Forum members valued other forum members more, and to an extent rightfully so. On average they added value to each others lives more so than they do now.
There is no fixing it.
It's just not new anymore, the Mountain Dew and Mcnugget hoarde has arrived, and they'll be posting tiny cartoon drawings of their emotions here long after anyone remotely interesting has left.
"Hillary Clinton was not fired from the House Judiciary Committee's Watergate investigation by Chief Counsel Jerry Zeifman.
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A pair of articles published during Hillary Clinton's run for the presidency in 2008, one by Northstar Writers Group founder Dan Calabrese and one by Jerry Zeifman himself, asserted that Zeifman was Hillary's supervisor during the Watergate investigation and that he eventually fired her from the investigation for "unethical, dishonest" conduct. However, whatever Zeifman may have thought of Hillary and her work during the investigation, he was not her supervisor, neither he nor anyone else fired her from her position on the Impeachment Inquiry staff (Zeifman in fact didn't have the power to fire her, even had he wanted to do so), his description of her conduct as "unethical" and "dishonest" is his personal, highly subjective characterization, and the "facts" on which he based that characterization were ones that he contradicted himself about on multiple occasions."
That'll learn ya not to wear a sheet when you attend their meetings.
If ya need some racial epitaphs to help you blend in next time let me know. We've been killing them folks over their in them deserts for about 20 years straight now, I know all the best dehumanizing slurs, they help with the cognitive dissonance.
Na...there's nothing wrong with how you handled that.
There were some things that weren't going to work for you, you explained them without belittling him for them. I think that's about all that's reasonable to expect of ourselves.
RE: Clarinet
10,000 hours.That's for mastery of a skill.
For quick reference you can practice an hour a day and it'll take 30 years.
With skill and quality practice you may become "good" to the ear of non-players in a couple thousand hours. 5-6 years at an hour a day.
Young players often log those hours much quicker. Sometimes spending all day practicing in their bedrooms. That 30 years comes down to 5 when logging 40 hours a week.
A lot of your more famous musicians are completely socially awkward, as a result of their awkwardness they logged practice hours in their youth instead of socializing, often as a coping mechanism to deal with isolation.