I have messed everything up!
Remember that blog I wrote, where I said I would be honest with my friend? Well, that has come around to bite me in the rear.She wrote me today, saying that in order to forgive me completely, I would have to be honest with her, about her phone. She values honesty above everything else.
I wrote her honestly, saying that what I did with her phone was beneath me. It was stupid, irresponsible and it would forever haunt me. I am not going into details, so you don't have to ask. Just know that I messed up big time.
I now have to write her a list of everything I am going to be honest about, which is a lot. From how I truly feel, to why I actually did what I did to her phone. I didn't hack it, bug it or tracked it, though, so those things are not even up for consideration.
The fact is: I love her. Truly, I do. Which is why I am kicking myself over and over for doing what I did. I will have to write her a very, very, VERY long message, explaining myself in detail. Holding nothing back. This is the only way I can make sure I am absolutely, 100% honest with her. I don't want to wake up one day, and not have her to talk to, which is something that can very much happen if I am not careful. I asked her about the things she left here. I offered to send them to her, but she wants to pick them up. I am not sure it is a great idea, which I will have to explain to her in the message.
Sidenote: ANY comments to this blog, that I find stupid or childish, WILL be deleted!
Comments (18)
If you sneaked in and read her phone that in my opinion is as bad as going through someone's purse,wallet.,or opening their mail
A violation of trust
Ask her how you can make it right and ask for a chance to do so
The good point, she wants to personally come to pick up her things after you offered to send it
In the mean time don't barrage her with too much talking by you, let her take it now from her side
You think you do.
You may at some point in the future. But right now, you are unqualified to make that judgement.
You may like her, but you do NOT fully know & understand her.
Thus, you THINK you love her, but you don't even know what love is, or even who she is.
Since you don't understand her, you only love your IDEA of who you think she is,
rather than the true her.
Once you truly understand her, then you may love her..... or not.
But, at least you'll be qualified to judge whether you love her,
because only then you will understand who she truly is.
As long as you learned something from this, its not all bad.
As you look back, you cannot believe you were so foolish and feel embarrassed by it.
Tell her also that you care very much about her and how she feels and feel horrible about your mistake.
Tell her that your friendship together is very important to you and you are hoping that you can grow from your foolish mistake to eventually become even closer. That's enough said.
So listen to uncle McBob
Go ahead and have yourself a private life. And don't be feeling you need to tell everyone about the ups & downs of the Danish, the Armed Forces &
Esp. The great pumpkin.
....zip it...
.......
Zip it good. Your pal,
Lt. General McBob
She had no interest in you before all this happened, she certainly hasn't now.
Learn from the experience, and hope it helps you to act more maturely if another woman ever comes into your life.
The name is irrelevant, the words are the same.