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For the past few years, pretty much ever since I got out of the navy, I have had a relatively big fear of holding a gun in my hands. I know, this sounds silly, with me expressing a desire to join the army and everything. But one of my biggest fears, is actually guns. It's weird, because I have no issue with violent shooter video games. I think it's because I know that video games aren't real. The gun I am holding isn't a real gun, and the people that I shoot aren't real people. The same thing with movies. I know that the guns shot in movies are dummy guns, shooting blanks. Whenever someone dies, from being shot, in a movie, it's fake. The person is alright at the end of the take.

In order to combat that fear, I have begun watching YouTube channels, with guns as the main focus. Demolition Ranch is one of them. That channel practices safe gun handling, as well as educating people on the guns used. I used to watch FPS Russia as well, since that channel was meant to entertain about gun safety, as well as demonstrating just how destructive a gun really is. I found another gun channel, called Hickok45, which is being described, as a "drama-free, "family-friendly" shooting channel". I have yet to dig into the videos, but the titles and thumbnails look interesting.

Now, I want to attend a gun range at some point in my life. It would then seem fitting, that I visit one when I am in New York. I just need to figure out which one to visit, since there are a LOT of ranges to pick from. It has to be one that gives clear and good instructions, regarding safety, posture, education about the guns and generally makes me comfortable with shooting a gun.

This is where you come in: Do you know of any gun range in the Albany/Troy area, that practices any of the things I have listed? I would love to go to an outdoor range, if possible. Not a requirement, though :)

Please keep the comments to the topic. I will delete any comments that aren't relevant to the subject

The ancients saw clairvoyant predictive value, Freud saw wish fulfillment, modern neuroscience---processing, storing and consolidation of memories. Look at Spanish cave art, and earlier woman saw hunted animals, and hubbies with those sexy large hands. But I digress. As I continue to evolve away from the chains of childhood traumata, thanks to my hot and brilliant Dr. M, and the art is long, believe me folks, my own dreams seem to be changing. Actually it sort of fits with the four theories as above. Fewer recalled episodes, yet what remain are much more intense. And there's more. As with the one a few weeks ago, where I actually FELT most sensations of being high, VERY high. Only wet dreams, VERY wet, seemed more experienced in the life. This morning, as I dreamed of an old GF, a lovely, decent lady, to whom I was a total crumb, whose new BF and I were inspecting water craft, I was impressed with how decent a (mid Eastern) fellow he was. When Ms. C. returned to the docks, with (real) tears in my eyes, I told her how happy I was for her new life, with such a nice man. But in the really striking part of the reverie, while looking at sails with this fine older man, we got to chatting about the political situation in Iran/Iraq. What wasn't striking was how lucid were his thoughts here. But that it all exactly dovetailed with a morning radio program on short wave, for a short guy, VERY short, which was all COMPLETELTY news to me, until the dream a few hours earlier. And his analysis was spot on, as HE, CC and Red would say. Sure, lots of alternative explanations, similar to those for deja and jamais vue phenomena. Starting to doubt such, though.. Bravo agrees. Grasping for the sacred I Ching. Ever onward, through the fog.

Now that's a habit that I've never picked up.
It's amazing I see it quite often especially from women!

For the last few weeks, I have been locked in a battle. We're not talking a death match type battle, though, but more a back-and-forth battle. It was a battle that I was CONFIDENT I could win.

When I started this battle, I thought to myself "This will be over quickly. Easy mode activate!", but it wasn't the case. Day after day, month after month, I tried my very best to win. I even went as far as going on Google to research, how I could win this battle.

Usually, Google is helpful. Not this time. I tried to call my mother to ask her, and I tried to follow her instructions. I even went on YouTube to see how others did it. I tried to follow their steps, but alas - I was still defeated.

So now, I am accepting defeat, but not for long. I guarantee that I WILL learn to cook the correct amount of pasta/rice/food for myself. I am truly awful at judging the correct amount of stuff to boil for myself.

I will resume this battle on Monday!

...again and a gain, in a public venue, while I'm trying to work on writing and Portuguese. One of my pet peeves, for which I've had more than one NY's resolution. And I'm actually making progress. Using ear buds, self trance, etc. But am I the only such intolerant huperson in God's lovely creation? I know one thing,.whenever I had a meeting with such a lady, who might have otherwise been a decent match, ---first and last meeting. No doubt. H E L P !

.....So there we were, all in one of our Tuesday morning groups, without any loud laughers in the cafe. Really nice company, a dozen folks, all ages, and kindly intent on learning. Except for one. I wrote too soon, as there was actually one big mouth there.This terribly opinionated (worse than even me),saggy, scraggly old cougar, whom I have disliked for years, ever since she was useless as a teacher in a language course, and tried to tell us, among many other things, with zero knowledge base, that acupuncture was totally BS. Twenty years teaching and married a german, and the language skills are mediocre. But I digress.Today this expert on everything in God's universe, was putting down US graduate schools (she never attended any), saying that EU ones were better, because "they don't make you do coursework there, none at all, just your research". And as always, never allowing anyone else to offer another word in edgewise..Was I ever tempted to make many comments on her tree top ignorance, now and always. A real anger based attack, perhaps even causing me to shake some. But the operative word was equanimity. Bit my tongue, and began talking more with members of the group closer to me, who were used to the show Funny, it was a struggle at first. Changing behaviors does involve a bit of that. But as time went on, and she left the group early for a mammogram (no, I'm not wishing even THAT on even her), all were more relaxed, and I had a sense of real accomplishment. Can't make this stuff up folks. Why can't we better learn all this good stuff at a much earlier age?.

Wikipedia
The term "chimera" has come to describe any mythical or fictional creature with parts taken from various animals, to describe anything composed of very disparate parts, or perceived as wildly imaginative, implausible, or dazzling.

Google
What makes a chimera?
An animal chimera is a single organism that is composed of two or more different populations of genetically distinct cells that originated from different zygotes involved in s*xual reproduction. ... Chimeras are formed from at least four parent cells (two fertilised eggs or early embryos fused together).

Look Here?


Is this the future or current time at present?

I think of the Centaur (Sagittarius)...Most well known Chimera in Astrology...
Pig / Lion Mixes
Scientists generating human organs by creating Chimeras...It will truly not be human...if it's a mix, and then using it on humans, will create more Chimeras...

Who wants a half pig, etc heart and more?

Are we really that hard-up, or will you accept anything if you cannot find a human donor, just to keep living...is that life?

....not merely due to such dreadful Maine winter weather. And more than just having to put up with such a crazy US POTUS. ( Even though I applaud some of the promises he"s actually keeping, as some of us have blogged on here.) Actually working on dual citizenship, based on family ties here. Spoke the Azorean Portuguese dialect as a boy, growing up in an Island community near Boston, but it slowly disappeared over the years, being replaced by other tongues. But the passive vocabulary remains, so I'm learning, via Duo Lingo on line, and total immersion here. And my cousins who have been successful with this goal, tell me the bureaucratic Portuguese migration language exam is murder, even for such a one in a kind brilliant homem such as I---well, perhaps Trump is just a bit more intelligent. But I digress. Not for everyone, the life here, ---thin jacket winter climate, cobblestone streets, outdoor cafes, public organic markets, decent art and university scene, lovely people, simpler life style, deadly crazy drivers, adorable women, men much less attractive than me, white wine to die for (reds are just OK), great 5.0 beer, killer 420-for those unlike me, interesting flora and fauna for backpacking, incredible local food, and all at the lowest prices in western Europe. But don't take my word for it. VISIT some day---very affordable vacations, if done like the disturbingly cheap bastard that I am. Mr. Prenuptial Man-Vierk.

Inspiration for Taking charge of my life and age gracefully was given to me by a female blogger. She wrote :

“Instead of trying to find ways to cope with feeling old and alone, you have to figure out how to be happy where you are with what you have and create something new in your life - Whatever Your Circumstances. That is something everyone can do. It doesn’t take money, a life partner, or even health. If you’re unhappy with your life, try little steps to make it better. Life is hard for everyone, but we can’t allow ourselves to focus on the bad. You have to turn your thoughts to something positive. And there is always something positive. Start a ritual with a cup of coffee or tea or juice,” she says. “Clean yourself up, put on some music or your favorite morning show, pour your coffee, sit down and write down five good things about your life. Remember to include: clean water on demand, a roof over your head, living in a free country, and no wars or bombs outside your window. ”She thinks the best thing for folks who feel old and alone is to choose to focus on the good things in their life for five minutes. “Try it every morning for a week,” she says.

All above brought me to the point where I've decided to do something "nice" everyday, something small. I will also take note of 3 different things everyday that I can be grateful for in my life.

The Story goes, that there is a lion in Heaven who guards the 9 gates in which We enter through.
So, since there are 9 gates they needed 9 lions to guard it, in turn the guardian to the gate created 9 lions of the same lion. Keeping in mind that the guardian has many tools at his disposal one being creating or doubling up.

To Us hes a harmless kitten, the ones who are forbidden entry, hes a giant, his head is the size of a house, and he eats their heads off. Literally. But that is not to say we do not go through the same process. Only difference is We dont lose our Heads.

So the guard and the lion whom both willingly serve all who live in Heaven protect the 9 gates for all eternity. Until the day someone finds a way around them, so that others may enter too.

But Our Father has anticipated this eventuality, because of the nature of the beast. as they say.

Imagine, if you will, that the Gates of Heaven acts like a Highly protected Computer, He is the User and His Room is the Throne and Himself in One.
Complicated I know but we'll get to that perhaps in another blog, because yes it may take that long to reveal? lol.

Getting back to the PC, and like all computers they are prone to viruses, however this virus was born in the PC and was not aware of himself becoming the virus. Until the appointed time in which he does become one. So like any virus its removed completely from the system and the pc gets formatted with a new OS, but formatting the pc was not enough, since the virus is evolving over time after being extracted, and placed into a vault, that he has left sometimes.

So he creates a program, that counters the integrated virus within the pc both hardware and software and integrates over top of the virus. So that all the mini-users will have the option of use to both the old and new system while all getting permission through the new system. And so far it has worked flawlessly, see what you have failed to realize dear reader that The User loves all that he creates. virus included...
The User is giving the virus the chance to evolve into something more loving of his own status. Because unbeknown to the world the virus was one of the highly honored, which is why the virus has been forgiven so often, before the change in nature.
Even the User hopes, this time he will change...

Back to the PC story.
The User realises he needs a whole new system that not only completely eradicates the virus while leaving the system in-tact, but it stays that way for ALL eternity and can never be manipulated ever again as well as the pc itseelf including the Throne is altered. Given that the virus was an earlier made program in the earlier days of the making of the pc it has to be a NEW Program the virus has never had contact with., but at the same time using what is already available.

Now in relation to the lion and the guardian there is nothing they can do to stop him from coming and going. however his children may never given access only he is.
But the virus is removed every time faster than the previous times because over time the pc has been upgrading for sometime now.

So he knows that after removing the virus the first time formatting the PC and introducing the new system over top of the old system it worked quite well. So he adjusts the new system, and creates a growing and self sustaining firewall from the previous new system. The Firewall will burn out all the virus has integrated itself into, and continue to grow until the virus will have no place to go except to see the Master User. Because none of his own programs he uses are working to sustain his self. In the end he loses all but his life and is thrown into the dark vault, where all the other naughty children currently remain.

This is my story enjoy or nt lol