You can do this until the end. And when it is over you will be so glad that you did, and that you had the chance to. No one can answer your question of why now.
I did what you are doing, hospice came once a day. Yes, I had to change everything, my mom was not able to feed herself even, but she would not eat anything anyways. I have two sons who helped as much as they could, but no other family at all.
Sweetheart, I remember the last conversation I had with my mom. I remember when I realized that there would be no more coherent conversations with her, that part of our lives was over. And I knew when she was gone mentally, and yes it was very sad.
Yet I am so grateful that I was with her, that she was home where she wanted to be. We still miss her so much, it was only last January 4th.
RE: What would be more likely to bother you in a relationship?
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