I walk alone...
I have wondered over the last few years what it is that I am missing in life. To anyone else it might be blatantly obvious , but to me...I have always been alone.Throughout life, I have always been singled out as different. I was always on the sidelines. I was shy and thought it best to say nothing, rather than be heard.
I don't believe in using excuses in life... that I had a hard childhood or that life has treated me unjustly. Life has treated me "just". It was my path in life to have gone where I have, to experienced what I have... and at the end of the day, it's not all bad.
So, am I complaining? Whining? No... I am simply sharing, because if I feel this way...there are others out there that are experiencing this too. I have always been a believer of the philosophy that if you close a door, a window opens. I have always believed you are who you want to be, you are solely responsible for most decisions that you make in your life... But what happens when forget how to reach out to others. When it's convenient for you... you have time for other people....but sometimes life isn't about convenience.
I love my job, and I like that it's provided me with some stability in life. I can pay my bills, I can do things that others may not. It comes at a price though.. I have learned to be that lone cowboy. I ride the horse, I eat alone, I walk alone, I do what is required of me ... and for all the good that my life has... I am very much alone.
I often wonder why I am on a dating site and goodness knows I have been asked enough why I am here. I never really had an answer...but after being away from home, living out of yet another motel... I know why I am here now. Regardless of my choices in life.... I want to believe that one day Prince Charming will come along and I will find my best friend in him.
(photo taken in my garden last Spring-Ixias)
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So often people pretend to be something they are not when they are in the dating world... at times it feels you have to play the game. I sincerely want to share my life with someone because I want to enjoy them, not what they have, not what they can do for me. Although I HAVE to admit that mowing the lawn is a task.
I believe I just want that best friend.
Be patience and keep the faith.
After all to me who won't come.
Why minute everyone I consider?
After all I know - the miracle won't occur.
Won't be neither steps, nor knock to doors.
Neither eye of darlings, nor favourite hands.
My loneliness is only silent
Me will embrace, and will lay down with me to sleep.
Thank you. I never really had faith, so there was nothing to lose...
Not that it's a date...
So why did I date them still? Well life is about the series of experiences you have... I really had nothing to lose... (except often my sanity
We are from different countries, girls...
But we speak the same language...
On the women's language.
And the one who is stronger than the circumstances
Anyone who knows how to close the door so that the opened window will understand our language.
But I prefer my loneliness in loneliness than...
I do not want to aggravate my loneliness.
We will be happy ... you'll see.
We all experience moments of happiness. That is not questioned. I want to believe that our time here, on this site is just a lull in our existence, until we move on.
Which is what I hope for you... that you find your piece of man candy and live happily ever after.
At this stage, I have your mood.
And I'm not sure I want some changes...
love you...
and caring thy love too.
And what a man can give it to me?
Abagail rights....
Friend and only friend...
Sometimes it may seem that life passes us by, but that is only what we think. Only when we onpen our eyes to it, we will see the richess that life has to offer us.
Being alone does not have to make us lonely; and being different does not have to make us outcasts!
But I love my loneliness ...
And if he is a Friend(!) I will reconsider my habits...
Not to get anyones compassion, but because it is my way to go this time in my life. I have chosen to be alone and I do feel good about it. I also are a big believer that what you send out, you get back, so be careful what you send out. I have by my own decided to be a single woman for the rest of my life, and I am fully aware of what that does for me. But I am very clear in what I want and it took me years to come to this decision.
Thank you for bringing up this topic, it is interesting to get to know what others think and do about the same. I've made up my mind to be alone and single for the rest of my life. I do wish you all the best and hope you get your dreams come true too... to find a man and live with him in peace.
Just my two cents here, err okay 5 cents now with inflation, lol.
Anyways, NO MATTER what you felt in the past or now... the day you encounter the ONE who truly captures your heart.. then all these kinds of thoughts and talk will be thrown out the window.
All the second guessing or the "this is what I want is to be single" or all that stuff.. will out the window when REAL LOVE comes a knocking and melts your heart... and all the disappointments of the past or uncertainties of the past.. will have all been worth it.. when you finally find great love and happiness.
Keep hope, keep faith.. Life is for living and loving. Dont let your heart and hopes die. Keep positive.. and I wish you and everyone here great happiness and smiles every day.
just live a day each time, and enjoy your life... no "frog" needed!!
I think as I get older I don't feel the need to "fit" in that much anymore. I wasn't a happy camper in school and didn't fit in well, it was later when I found friends outsite that circle that I started having more friends and a boyfriend. I live in another country and in some respects it fits me well and I have good friends (in other areas it's the opposite and doesn't work at all
As in a partner, this is the part I do find difficult here because of different values and upbringing. I did have (few) great partners and somehow I can't imagine not having that in my life again, but I can't see it happening anytime soon.
Delatude-As a young girl , I always felt I would be okay. Even when things were at their worst, I was quite sure they would be.
Fortunately I can't change who I inherently am- I will always hold onto hope. Delightful song choice --Thank you.
Catfoot- I have always felt this way. Sometimes I needed to be alone and revelled in the freedom it offered. Who knows ...for me, this could be a mid-life crisis??!!?
Robrt-- A whole five cents?!?!? Dang! So much for when it only cost a penny for someone's thoughts! Shall I send you cash?