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any one interested in helping me organise an over forty,s singles night on the costa del sol ?
get back to me if interested.

i just got a email 2day telling me somebody got a jc penny credit card in my name i cant even write them back i used all the memory on my computer which is really my ps3 console it didn't take long for me 2 learn lesson about email addresses and scammers im not even mad about it at least they know i exist now i guess is their anybody real on these computers iv been veiwd 800 times now i like 2 window shop 2 im thinking the 1000th girl will be the lucky customer i always try 2 satisfy and ul know why so just give me a try cuz i never lie my rymes are intense maybe not ok their not anyhoo im not giving out my email address anymore how sick is someone 2 scam a person just looking for love it won't stop me or get me negative i know theirs still good people out their just looking like i am i always wish people the best their will be no part 2 i know ur disappointed about that maybe not i just dont feel like changing the title its intense::peace:

This is for anyone in the unfortunate position where they may have experienced living with a Bully or perhaps better described as a Narcissist..... WELL DONE if you have managed to disentangle yourself from this person as it is a very difficult thing to achieve as the longer you are with them the more your self-belief and self-esteem is thrown into question.

They believe that there is 'nobody' better or equal to themselves and that nobody's' opinion is worth listening to .... It is a particularly sinister form of Bullying as there are no visible signs of abuse from the outside but the pain at times can be so much worse .... If you do not appear to agree with their opinions or suggestions they will just ignore you and sulk .... having read up on articles pertaining to this 'Disease' it is commonly known as being similar to the Characteristics found in six year old children. They are often excellent providers as they like the outsider to see them as being successful and the perfect family Man/Woman.

They aspire to be almost Godlike and accountable to nobody - makes living with a Narcissist quite distressing as they are likely to take un-necessary risks with the view that they can 'never' be wrong.

They will never ever compliment you or say anything positive about you - they will choose instead to always put you down and pick on anything negative they can find. They will often be heard to say "you'd be nothing without me" ... this is what they genuinely believe.

I will say one thing in this instance that as an individual living with this type of person it is a living nightmare but to those of you who have Children it is so much worse .... Children are a product of their up-bringing - what they see is what they believe is the way to be .... If Children see this kind of dis-respect towards another Human Being on a constant basis who's to say that they will not go on to treat their future Partners with the same level of dis-respect?

Narcissism is a Disease without the proper Medical Help it really does get worse...... the problem is that Narcissists do not believe they have a problem so it is very difficult to persuade them to get help.

This is written with the sole intention to those of you that may perhaps recognize certain details, so that you know that it is NOT your imagination, that this is actually happening to you ..... Nobody should be expected to accept this degree of dis-respect from another individual 'ever!'

It is hard to get the strength to get out but YOU CAN DO IT and believe me there is a much better 'Life' waiting for you ..... a place where you no longer need to get that knot in your stomach everytime your Partner comes through the door, worrying constantly and trying to do your 'best' for them - waiting for that one day where they will say that they 'Love' you or even 'Well Done' that's great ... the normal expectations from a 'normal Loving Relationship!!'

Before you open me, make sure this is what you want to do. Right now all you have is an outside view. Are you ready to explore what lies with in? Think about this for a while before you begin.What you're about to experience is very precious some would say priceless. I am wise beyond my
years as my soul is old some would say ageless.Few have scratched the surface and many failed to grasp its meaning, of a life that has taken me far beyond simple dreaming, Are you prepared to dive into the depth of my soul? Can you
abandon all your fears and all that you've been told? Learn what makes me smile and what touches my heart.Learn what makes me happy and what tears me apart. Open me and touch my pages. Be careful, I can be quite contagious. Take a risk,take a chance and let me take you higher. Take a
few deep breaths and breathe into me. Take it slow, start to read me, then re-read me. Get to know me, not just part of me, but every part until you know me completely. Read all of me, Endlessly.Open me very carefully, Take all the time you need. don't search for selected phrases, Read me
slow in steady stages. I'm a great read unlike an other. the faster you begin, the quicker you'll discover. Don't read between the lines.Memorize every word and rhyme. Know me backwards and forwards. Desire me inside and out. Take all the time you need to learn, what this princess is all about. Once finished, let me flow through your soul, and crawl deep inside as my love fills that. Kiss me gently with lips we with desire dance with me at midnight under the stars so bright let me see your face in the morning light will there be angels whispering to me good night, don't wake when the lightning strikes, my heart was so blue I will love you till the end of time with every breath of mine.I'll hold you by my side but I'll rest in peace,only you can stop the rain tonight only you can change my world from black to white. Only you can stop the raining tonight only you can give me the strength to fight, till the sky is burning, Its the end of time life,would no longer be empty
with you in my heart. Light the candle in my soul,Carry it into the dark. If you find a flame that's losing its glow Light it with a spark. The flame only grows brighter When it gives another light, And a billion burning candles Can you drive me away into the night? Hold up your candle for all to see, Reach from shore to shore, And light the world with love and liberty Now and Forever more!Is this you ? If so let me know.

I want a man of Good Character. Unlike most talents, good character is not something we are born with - it must be built piece by piece through Thought, Choice, Courage, and
Determination. A strong man that will stand
up for what he believes in...even if it means he stands alone. One that is smart enough to know when to follow his heart instead of his head. One absolute necessity is an incredible,wonderful, irresistible heart? A heart that
enables him to love deeply. Other qualities I look for is a man is the ability to change,learn, grow, and the willingness to do so.He must understand and display tenderness, understanding, a strong sense of self, and have
the ability to love truly and passionately.....unconditionally forever. He will possess the ability to be strong without cruelty, vulnerable
without weakness, and loving without possessiveness. A man that doesn't feel threatened by a womans intelligence. As
a father he would treat his daughters with un-patronizing respect and his sons with gentle authority. He knows that a man should be respected, not feared. He must have a good
sense of humor, and to know when and when not to take life seriously. Romance is the Process..Love is the Goal! I've never been able to figure out why so many people settle for less than exciting, passionate lives. We deserve an
exciting life, and a passionate relationship.Getting what you deserve requires confidence,positive self-esteem, and a willingness to take responsibility for your relationship and your life. Nobody said it would be easy - but man,
the rewards are incredible! The price of intimacy is high. And the risk is great. The price is Yourself. And the risk is abandonment, loss or humiliation. These are major, and
understandable barriers. Everything else in life is easy compared with love. You can learn the secrets of the atom. You can become an Olympic athlete. You can send a man to the Moon. But there's no instruction book or guru who can teach you a sure-fire,guaranteed method for achieving lasting love in your life. And yet love is what it's all about! What about the promise of intimacy? People who experience intimacy with their partners are lovers with an inner resource that takes them beyond the limits of what one person alone can achieve. They have a safe harbor, and this helps them deal with the world much more effectively. And, they experience an inner peace unknown to most because Lovers listen with their Hearts! Creating a loving
relationship is the most difficult, time-consuming and complicated challenge you will face in your entire life. Welcome to the mystery, the challenge,the journey.

If your looking for a one night stand dont waste my time its not going to happen, if your into playing games with someones feelings and everything once again dont waste my time. If you cant be honest with me and yourself and you know what you want in life but your not strong enough to stand up and fight for it and if your looking for someone thats fake and that lays in the bars and that dont know how to treat someone then your reading the wrong profile. I know what i want in life and in a man and im not going to settle for less. and this might make me a **** and if it does then i guess im a ****, but my happiness means alot to me.....so if your looking for something real, a caring,loving,honest person which is so hard to find now days then hit me up other then that DONT WASTE MY TIME.......

I wish I could be with you everynight,watch you fall asleep and kiss you goodnight.When I get to heaven,I know just what to do.I'll spend eternity watching over.

You know, my love, we simply don't understand
each other. We try to send messages, but end up
hurting each other.

Never did I think that a love could go so wrong.
Never did I think that, I could get so hurt
Never in my life did I think that I would
feel this close to someone.

I need more of you, every time I think of you,
I need more of you, so my rains turn to suns
Yet, we go so distant, so detached with no comfort.

I will go as far as I could, darling
because I know, there is no turning back now
You have left me, and I just know,
there will never be another day
when I could be in your arms once again
just to feel secure, just to feel sooooo good

I am just going to leave you alone from now on
so you could find the joys of life
joys of love, from people you need
Yes darling, I shall try not to cry
It is hard..

I don't look for you now, my mind is now trained!!
Gosh, I used, to look for you everywhere,
I would wait to see, a dark figure, in long sleeves
walking by, Now my good mind and eyes are trained
they don't look for you anymore..

May be I will be able to train my heart too
I will try, cos, you have put me out
You have shown me, that, I am of no use.
Yes I must have hurt you too,
I have longed to keep channels of communication
open, so we could air out our differences
such strategies have never worked.

So, I am moving out now, I have friends
who might lend me a helping hand
to struggle up
You have friends too, with whom
you could cry out.


Let us go our separate ways.

My love for you will be a beacon
in the darkest of seas
I know the feeling will let me live
A new love or life is hard to think of
I am older now, and wiser I guess.

Let us go our separate ways. [/i

Man invents himself,good or bad.Within society he cannot predict the end result of his future gains or losses.Hopefully his upbringing and his lifelong experiences will help his productivity.He also has to deal with his own obstacles and the consequence of his choices.Some of us choose to work on inner peace,& some have a devil-may-care attitude.-Which makes life easier? Some may choose to self-distruct,and wonder why they fail.All the species of the earth are both needy and resilient,gaining knowledge from only past mistakes,instead of thinking out an adverse effect.We need support and encouragement.To be loved,nurtured,and valued,or we lose whatever we gain.But we can survive,if one can constuct,not destruct......There is always room for change in wisdom and knowledge. Still some of us don`t learn the meaning of what adversity teaches.We stay out of touch with what is important,what`s respectful,& what love for mankind means.Don`t choose to be out of view,everyone is important and has the God-given right to be counted.Spread the word around:You have value.

For those that value the knowledge of wisdom gained from the experiences of life,I envite you to read some essays -In the poems & writings forum.Moonkitten

Is someone "UP there" taking notes all day and night? Ohhh I saw that Jenny, that was bad!
It will go in My books.
OMG He must be very busy.
Number one, God is Spirit so is Not writing down anything!
We human beings carry it all in our Own head.
On judgement day the "computer" in our head brings it all to the survice.
It will roll off like a film.
Everything we have Ever seen, heard, said, experienced, it is all in our subconcious for ever!
Neatly filled away.
Remember some people have told that when they fell of a high place, that their whole life flashed by in split seconds?
Same thing, when our own "computer" starts to roll off, it will show it all in a matter of a split second.
What brought this thought on was this;
When a loved one dies, how often we hear people, saying/thinking things like; I am so thankful he/she still saw his grandbabies.
So happy he'/she still got to go on that vacation. Glad he/she never........etc.etc.
Even non-believers do this. Why do we people do this?
Is part of this driven by regrets, guilts and things we are very grateful for?
I believe the body returns to dust, but the spirit can Not die.
Where ever it is going to spend eternity, will this spirit have memories of things happening during its life,
possitive's or negative's, sometimes later?
The Good Book says that all who have already passed from this planet, are asleep, so for now there are
no memories in their memory banks.