Sadness Poems (1,688)

We keep our feelings here inside our heart....This is what keeps people apart......But is every one like me.....For into there hearts i cannot see.....I now meet someone and look into there eyes.....To see if their heart like mine silently cries.....And on we go with our hearts still crying.....Pretending to be happy but we are lying ....jw

I wake up to a new day
But the day still looks the same
What was I hoping for
what did I expect to change

same heart thats always broken
same lies I always hear
same truth that I have to face
Same "What am I doing here"

So take a look in the mirror
and tell me what you see
is it really you standing there

and would anyone ever understand
how easy it would be to change who I am.

show a little kindness
give a little respect
keep a little dignity
Thats all that I expect

life has taught me very well
the lessons I must learn
and all the good to come of it
is I have learnt to be strong

I don't want your forgiveness
nor do I want your sympathy
this is not self pity
I don't have time for that

why can't you understand me
accept me for who I am
is it really that difficult
do you even try at all

So I ask the Questions
to answers I may never find
I am tired and very weary
I am trying hard not to fall.

Take a look in the mirror
I will tell you what I see
I see hurt, pain & disgust
of the way I let you treat me

So no more will you disregard me
No more guilt or cutting remarks
No more will I blindly follow
the shadow you are making me

My soul doesn't belong to you
There is only so much pain I can go through
the walls will start closing down
the feelings that I have

Every scar you make for me
will soon no longer make me sad

Because with every new day
and every reflection I see
The day may stay the same
But it is me who will change

maybe I am cold and synical
well if it is so be
you never tried to look inside
and see the real me

I am not a puppet
I will break before I bend
This is what life is teaching me
and there is way to much to mend

Look into the mirror
what reflection do you see?
Are you really smiling??
or crushed in misery???

I mean no harm and yet been found,
Guilty of crimes when I am nice,
I Dont want to be nice anymore,
Putting up and getting trash.

Who am I trying to impress?
You,she,or him ,it is anybody guess!
When you are like me all alone,
I ask each of you ,who do You have?

Friends,lover or even a wife?
The air I breathe is getting cold...
Could have saved me if you had..
And now my conscious slipping by..

Heavy eyelids still wants to see,
If a miracle could happen yet..
A slumber too deep is waiting patiently,
Will you just stand there and let me be...?

Difficult I am



I know you find me difficult,
I wish that I could be
Somebody different
but you know its not me!

I have tried to change
the way I am
But a full circle has turned
back where I began!

I dont know why ,
you feel it is because of you
Its not anything that you've said
or anything you do!

Sometimes I need to be alone
to be free,
That doesn't mean I was saying
you cage me!

I like to be cranky, moody,
solemn and sad
Its all just a a part of who I am
I am sorry if this makes you mad!

I know you want me to let you in
help you to see
I cant tell you of things
deep inside me
not because I dont trust you
I trust you more than you know
But the Demons inside of me
I will never show

To do so would mean I have to go back
and relive it again
Im not strong enough to do that
there is too much pain

Dont tell me if I never try
I will never know
I've already been there
and I paid the price to go!

I believe that some things
are better left unsaid
just as the story of my life
is better left unread!

It is all the simple things
you dont understand
Like why I find it difficult
to just hold your hand!

In life there are lessons
that we must learn
My lessons were harsh and cruel
I got burnt!

It has taken me a long time
to get use to touch
The things you take for granted
the things you love so much!

So when I freeze or pull away
dont think that it is you
Sometimes I cant control
the times that I do!

I hate when you are sad
and the reason is me
I want so much to run to hold you
but something always makes me let you be.

One moment turns into an eternity
Its too late
the moment is gone
I can never get it back
never change where I was wrong

Silence becomes so loud
when its words you want to hear
I know you want answers
but it is my words that I fear!

Silence is the only way
I can cope
every second that passes by
Im trying not to choke

When I cant help you understand
and you can not see
Too many times before
my words have been used against me


Please dont make me feel guilty
like many try too
Because thats when i will say good bye
I do not do it to you!

I just want you to accept me
for the way that I am
You dont have to deal with it
or understand!

I dont want your pity
or your sympathy
Accept the fact that I wont change
and just let me be

I've been this way for a long time
Its how I protect
It doesnt make me sad
nor do I regret!

Dissillusionment of Extrodinary becomes just "ordinary"

The echo in my mind is just my lonely hearts cry
in our minds we are free to create elaborate fantasy
convince ourselves that what we see is what we need to recieve

I thought that when I gave great love that it would be returned to me
That someone would see me as extrodinary.
That someone would feel great need for me.
That I could be put on a pedastool
how could i let myself be such a fool.

A heart will want what it does want
My heart wants someone to chase after me
someone to believe I am wonderful
someone to tell me that I am remarkable and special
Someone who will get lost in my eyes
Someone who yearns to make me smile
Someone who wants my life to be easy
Someone who believes in me
Someone who will move the heavens and earth to be with me
Someone who wants to make time stand still
Show me that I am more than ordinary

Rose

Why did you call to me like a sirens song on the wind
sad and luring compelling me to this place

how did you reach me my heart was black and closed
its not right that you took my healing

a rare and precious rose you found
which you quickly placed under glass
insisted on my honesty and loyalty

but now you leave me here
cold and lonely without your heart
left on a shelf slowly dying underneath the glass

you still make the occasional promise of hope
but every step you take is away from me
I am becoming more brittle everyday

Soon I will be a meer memory
locked within this glass
no hope left no desire to continue to shine
maybe it is true that nothing lasts

I wish you didnt show me that.
as I would prefer to hope.

Words left unspoken fall upon deaf ears
Yet sometimes say more kept in silence
Betrayal of those given their all to you
Slashed away in actions not words
A turn of the head with lips still sealed
Was the only thing you needed to say
I saw the shame across your face
But flickered away so quickly
Message received loud and so clear
No time soon shall be forgotten

Can a year in your life a difference make....Is it the same as to throw a stone in the lake....The ripples spread out it would seem never ending...Or is this just another year pending....What would i want the the difference to be.....Perhaps solve every problem for me....But it could also be the end of the end....And drive me round the bend......To old for change no years difference do i need...Only if the difference would mean our world we could feed...But as usual when we humans are put to the test....Its not the difference but the indifference where we fail the test........jw

What treachery it is
To draw your love close to me
Magnifying my horror
This masochist burden of guilt
Which sets my world aright
In sudden bursts of catatonia
In corners, hidden, grieving
Us, we, both

I wish i had loving angels to guide me through the day..i would happily pay them a penny each then merrily be on my way..i need these sweet little angels to save me from this internal war..i guess for now i'll have to fight with all my strength to achieve what i'm searching for..i know my loving angels will suddenly appear some day to guide me through my troubled world then no longer will i live in saddness and fear..so..dear illusive angels do answer my prayers..don't leave me here in this world alone frightened and despaired..so..once again sweet angels..help me ! guide me ! let me be me !..yes ! i want to be internally free..that's all i wish to ever be..free ! free ! free !..Written By robyn bashford..A.R.R.