Forgiveness Poems (316)

NO DONT CRY
BUT DONT ASK WHY
HOLD ALL OF YOUR HURT INSIDE
AND NO ONE WANTS SEE THAT
YOUR NOT GOING TO DIE
CAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO SEE YOU CRY

SO BE A MAN
NO HAND IN HAND
DONT YOU WANT TO BE A MAN

COME ON NOW ILL SHOW YOU HOW
THE PAIN WE LEARN TO KEEP INSIDE
SO DONT BE SAD ITS NOT SO BAD
AND I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR DAD

MOM WILL BE FINE
JUST WAIT AND SEE
DONT YOU WANT TO BE LIKE ME

NOW SO WHAT
YOUR GROWN UP
GO ON NOW SON
AND GET A JOB
SO YOU CAN WORK
AND BUILD A LIFE UPON YOUR WORD

DAD SHOWED YOU ONCE HOW TO DEAL
BUT NO ONE THINKS THAT MEN CAN FEEL

WHY IN THE NAME OF GOD ARE YOU NOT DEALING
CAUSE DONT YOU KNOW MEN DONT HAVE FEELINGS

SO GROW UP NOW AND DONT BE SAD
THESE TOOLS YOU USE TO BE A MAN
SO LISTEN NOW DO GO INSANE
CAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO FEEL YOUR PAIN

SO FORGIVE ME PLEASE IF YOU CANT SEE
THIS MAN THAT'S HERE REALLY DOSE FEEL!!!

I have a pain so deep you'll never see
I locked it away and hid the key.
I sought my death, and found it in my soul.
I look for life,but only found death.
How could I be so lost and never found.
i long await the simple ground.
And fading away i wither in kind.
loves lost hopes ill never find.
The day is gone and iv saw no sun no love there is no moon.
i wish i died while having fun.
And so it came to be this man.
but i strive against my will.
In our short time We shared so much.
but never again will i feel your touch.
Im sorry for all that's been said and done .
just want you to know you where the only only one.

Having spent so many years,
trying to keep a love alive,
in a relationship with so many tears,
to find that all, had finally died,

Then onto the process of finding love,
to find that energy, to find that spark,
to meet that person who could be your glove,
hit by the scammers, liars this is going to be a lark,

Being so long out of the game,
you miss that presence of one so dear,
all the false promises is driving you insane,
time is passing, this is clear,

So you find one who shows a smile,
a glimmer of hope, a worthwhile task,
your words and hers said this could go the extra mile,
please do not lie, was all I ask,

Words we used to express our emotions,
your heart is open in need of feeling,
things were moving and in fast motions,
could this be the one with the healing,

Her words showed so much promise,
my words were from the heart,
telling me her love was honest,
I had so much to give and this was a start,

Time moved on, we related,
all seemed well, till that day,
you asked me "miks", and awaited,
seems my ex, wants her say,

Your face showed it all,
ex wants her share of my pension, lump sum due,
you stood indignant, what a gall,
legal wrangling is all, I will still be left with a few,

Then the panic, the fear,
your impatience made me worry,
you told me you would always be near,
then why the move back?, whats the hurry,

I still have things to do,
Yes you told me about the new grandchild due,
I will be back, as am always here for you,
words, we whispered of love true,

Just two weeks after,
you told me it was over and cant` go through,
there were lots of tears, no laughter,
now I have to start this process all anew.

Be who you are:
The One
you secret
inside.
Live with valor
what you feel.
Release the love
you hide.
The dream we live in
suffers fools
who dare throw
their heart's doors
open wide.
Love's gate keeper
be Thou not.
Nor your own
True Self
despise.

Fear not Thou
tiny horrors:
rejection
derision
spite.
Nor boast
of what Time
steals away:
possessions
beauty
pride.
But live
your life
in tribute fair:
Angelic Grail of Light.
The heroic gaze
of Love's champion
Will never be
denied.

Callaghan Grant 11/04/2013

Single at war..


Double be at peace..
Put down your weapons..
I’ve come to say please..
I hold up my hands..
I wave a white flag..
I come with no damage..
Only one bag..

I packed it away..
Just so you know..
I tried to lose it..
But it won’t go..
It’s only small ..
It’s not on my mind..
So forgive me..
Be gentle..
Be ever so kind..
I’ll give you my heart..
I only have one..
So don’t be at war..
Peace can be won.

If only tears were not stinging my eyes
I might find more than just your lies
If only memories of the past would hold
I might believe the words you’ve recently told
If only the hands of time would turn back
I wouldn’t feel in a mood so black
If only we could start this over once more
Then my if’s could be thrown out the door

I woke up this morning and my heart felt empty, it had no spring or summer only winter, the cold reached down inside of me touching the parts that once had sunshine and warmth, grey skies filled every image of you I once held so close , My mind and my heart filled with nothing but sorrow, pain, regret and the want for forgiveness, where once lay a Raynebow now there was darkness, a darkness created by stupidity, envy, jealousy and personal need, I have nothing left inside of me except a small corner where I huddle under a once clear sky that now holds darkness and a small fire called hope that is fuelled by the belief that my raynebow will return to me and once again brighten up my heart.

My fingers touch the outline of her lips...
stopping in mid-sentence,
she declares nothing more is to be said.
Like beads falling from a string,
each moment seems to fall silently to the ground...
lost and trammeled under the sand...
a gift consigned to posterity....
and to anyone that may pick through the ash and rubble.

So it is with this temple.
The caretakers forsake their deed, and walk the shortest path away from each other...
So it is.

Bitter tears and bankrupt emotions rule this day.

If love and hate are equally toxic...and one must imbibe,
I prefer the intent of the former....to the result of the latter.
But mine is not to alter...
but to forget and to forgive.
So it is...

Made from love and I was born
A mistake that came from heaven
Hugs I needed and the love I craved
Were very rarely given
The acceptance that he gave
Was not really real
Then I would start to misbehave
To get attention that I craved
My soul cried out to be loved
By a man in love with his beer
The soul can never forget this pain
And so you must forgive me dear
My frustrations were forged back then
I thought deep to find the answer

One night I was a troubled teen
It seems today like an awful dream
I thought no one cared or listened
The droplets of beer on his beard glistened
He was awful to my mother
He was hurting my little brother
Mean to me as always, far too much aggression
A white teddy bear a rainbow around his neck;
I clung to it for comfort that night, his name was Ragamuffian

I took all the pills that I could find
And lay down on their bed hoping to die
Soon I became filled with fear,
Where would my soul go from here?
When he came into the room, so late
I murmured: “please don’t let me die”
He dragged me to the bathroom then
Tried forcing salt water down my throat
My hair was pulled I was thrown to the ground
He drunk drove me to the hospital
He ripped my teddies head off
Pulled me up the stairs…

I awoke in a hospital bed…
It was my birthday the next day! And I was full of tears…

I’m so sorry to disappoint you; I know this won’t make sense
Could hardly explain it all…But I hate teddies to this day,
I was craving the love of a beer drinking man
I could never bear to be shut out this way…
The gate: your evidence!

MISTER M-I-S-T-E-R period. Danny Glover"aint y'all got nothin better to do?"